:3 painful to hear the best album of the decade

BE STILL MY HEART.... SIGHH.

kippy manbearpig was looking at me like the whole time when he was playing and singing

You can drive around all night
with the radio on high
and wonder what it’s like to be liked
and never feel out of time

You’re not the only one, you’re just my only one

Even in dreams I could not betray you

If I could shut my eyes
and disconnect my mind
there’s just one thought I’d think
I’d think it all the time

‘Cuz there’s nobody like you
Is that why they don’t like you?
You are cold and dead to their jokes

Yeah, there’s nobody like you
Is that why they don’t like you
like I do?

And I do

I know
it is wrong
but we just don't belong
in your eyes
in the sun
no we just don't belong

in hospitals
in shopping malls
with heavy heads
and locker walls

an empty street
at three a.m.
you told me you're not one of them

we took a vow
to never sleep
while there was still air left to breathe

And you?re the same
so slightly strange
among the fakes you knew the pains

What did you take? cuz that's what I'll take,
And I can't take it without you

When I feel dead, I lay in my bed
I don't want to lay here without you

Now you can't stand, well I understand
You can take my heavy hand

Cuz I can't resist the touch of your lips
I feel the bliss on my 'ngertips-oh shit

And I'm scared that this could end
Face down in the park again
Wondering where I left my mind last night
But that's alright, you're my terrible friend
Everyone is pretty and fun, everyone is lovely and young
Everyone is gentle and gone, but everyone's just everyone

And you're the one who's breaking me
And you're the one who just won't leave
Still I don't want it to end, you are my terrible friend

Don’t tell me that a day will come
when we dress like everyone
‘cuz I can tell you’re strange like me


Don’t say the hour’s growing late
Don’t say we should be going straight
‘cuz I can tell you’re strange like me

And dreams can still come true,
and it’s coming true for you

keks







I LOVE HIS GOLDFISH LIPS!

its fucking patricks birthday

I wonder what hes doing for it? romancing and dancing? lol crunking and junking. lol what? going off the diet because I decided to play a hella long game about vampires and the bitchy main character was such a fucking mongering lady, until she punched that guy in the face that was fierce. she was also not that slutty but was ok with a sexy nurse outfit. no pic spam because I did one for another journal and thats fair enough right? its 2 hours to non birthday so yeah. ooooohhhh mmmy gooodness soooooo hungry. I also am having a love affair with ezra furman. I'm not yet convinced his a lonely smore but I am well aware he is one crazy mother fucker. lol well going to peeeee, and hope the spider I was hitting earlier is not crawling around again, hope that fucker is dead as a doornail. also I may be going back to old church for the lolz and also because I miss them, god love them. so bort.

:3 song of my life

I dove into your heart like a pool
But there was no water in it and I felt like a fool
When I hit the concrete bottom and I broke in two
Ooh oh oh oh oh oh
Walked to the hotel through the door
But the man at the desk said you weren't staying there no more
And I felt so stupid so sorry that I called you a whore
Ooh oh oh oh oh oh

You were just doin' what you had to do
And I feel so dumb for bein' mad at you ooh
I can't stay mad, I can't stay mad at you
I can't stay mad, I can't stay mad at you
My heart is full I've got no room, no room

I grew up with my family
But I didn't not want to leave and I cried like a baby
I asked, "Could I ever come back home?" and my Dad said "Maybe..."
ooh oh oh oh oh oh
So I found a new place to live
But I had trouble figuring out what's not real and what is
The big city was so crazy I could hardly even breathe
Ooh oh oh oh oh oh

And now I'm living in a fantasy
And I will always live there probably ooh
You could move in, you could move in with me
You could move in, you could move in with me
The stakes are high, the trees are green okay!

We're all just doin' what we have to do
Nothin' will ever be like it was back in 1992 no-o
And I can't stay mad, I can't stay mad at you
I can't stay mad, I can't stay mad at you
My heart's real full but I'll make room, I'll make room
I'll make room, I'll make room oh-ho
Okay well, woh-oh!Woh-oh!Woh-oh!Ooh!
I got tell you that the stakes are high
and the stakes are high, the trees are green
and don't be mean and don't be mean n-n-n-n-n-no!
Woh-oh!Woh-oh!Woh! Hey! 1,2,3,4!

So I'm not legally insane as said on sane test anymore!, suhweet! I went from 115 to 30 woah!!! I know right, the tip is to get as low as possible. also going to print it out, and keep it for reference. I am loving ezra real good right now. he looks like bobby but sings, mmm that boy would be absolute perfect if he sang... he prob sings too in the shower and the car. I want to meet him again when I am more confident and stave crushing blow. going to take a shower b back l8er.

love me post

I just realized my alternate reality is inception!! oooh oh snap i'm gonna have to sleep forever if I want it to last keke. also kk has deleted from her friends list she is absolutely no where in sight. also I'm fucking exhausted. kinda hungry. I just found a very supportive depression website and I'm working through my emotions. it went pretty well last night, was crying but ended up sleeping well, I think I may had of dream of being a size 10-12 and macking out with honey b and then going to a concert and the hottie aneroxic singer fights with him over me and I'm like come on guys stop it, you can't be fighting over lil old me... wait you can because i'm fucking fierce. siggghhhh the life I lead in dreams is so much more awesome than real life, I don't think I was even sleeping I was totally lucid. eh thats a deal breaker. I am looking for a fellow fatty who wants to whatever the hell they want who is in love with kith, frange, and the stars. anyone single obsession over any of those would be sufficient. I want him to be heavy and cuddle sized, I want to have lots of hand holding and eye watching. I want us to be perfect, I want other people to go wow I want to be that couple and I want makedamnsure to be jealous, especially her. Goodnight hope my dreams are sweet as honey from the bees and the light of the sun reflecting on the moon.

this is the only skinny patrick gif that I find appealing

Hes actually smiling. God love him, I haven't seen that man smile in hella days and it just warms my warm fatty bones. I could crush him with my weight of my words. lolz


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^_^ HES NOT EVEN MOVING THATS EVEN BETTER!!!
IMAGINING HIM RIGHT NOW, AS I TELL HIM THE MOST WITTY HILARIOUS JOKE HE FALLS MADLY AND DEEPLY IN LIKE WITH ME, WE BECOME PLATONIC FRIENDS... SOMEDAY MAYBE MORE ^_^

everythings been changing

but its not necessarily good.

hohum, there were barely anybody at work 2day, watched two movies and smirked and gaffed at some of the comments, alot of kids and their parents, the green area was particularly stark. also I had a jumping pic but it didn't go thru in the mail which sux ass. I feel like I lost a pound this week and that makes me feel good. maybe when i'm 2 sizes down from what my current weight is, I'm going go out whoring and publicisizing my indie cred. I'm just a terrible liar, I guess I dont care, I love living in this fantasy. No cares in the world that reminds me of sugar town, except shes a hot bitch who gets whatever she wants probably. I really want to move to an ultra hip place and start a new. I will paint a completely different picture of my life I will take up photography and be classy and people will adore me forever to come. sighhh, so far I've met people and pretty good looking not be conceited or anything just confident of myself, I look in that mirror and say I am smart enough, good enough, and dammit janet people love me. fuck the h8ers! snitches and bitches aint shit. :) bye

Note to self I miss you terribly

ALSO I NEED TO DL THIS BAND'S DISCOVERY STAT
Dressed up from head to toe, to get by.
it seems once again, I forgot what keeps me safe and dry.
to the weepy windowpanes, that are dripping with dew...
I can hear the rain outside, falling from the sky
and you can hear the...

pitter patter on the rooftop
you can listen to the rythem of the raindrops
I wish that the sun would come and stay
but this is a song for rainy days

(Leo D. quote from the movie Basketball Diaries = "You're growing up, and the rain sort of remains on the branches of a tree that will someday rule the Earth, and it's good that there is rain. It clears the month of your sorry rainbow expressions, and it clears the streets of the silent armies, so we can dance.")

let's go dance around in the rain
don't pay any attention to the people staring from inside
we'll leave all our cares behind
and you can hear it the...

and I know once the clouds shed their tears
I know that I'll be okay
I know that I'll be okay

even if the rain always wins
and forces my eyes shut, to dream of
I'll still dream of brighter days

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmania.com/umbrellas_and_elephants_lyrics_cinematic_sunrise.html
All about Cinematic Sunrise: http://www.musictory.com/music/Cinematic+Sunrise

a word from our sponsers...

I think I'm in love Kippy man bear pig... am I even spelling his name right? haha no I obvs changed it to make it more private. But while seeing the pains live he remarked ever so sweetly,
"I think you should go out and buy records and record us or someone else, we're not that great, I really like craftspell's album cover because of the flowers... thats the type of stuff I like flowers, rainbows, and swallows"
it was FUCKING AWESOME. also the guitar vox guy is fucking hot as well, not to mention he sort of looks like george harrison's son, but he does have a son and it is certainly not him. I read a few interviews with the singer and he said that when people call the band gay they love it. the concert lasted 25 mins when usually its a 45 min show, wtf? thats what I said thats a fucking short show hell no I'm paying 20 bucks for that...
ALSO THE PETER SAYS:
*Sidenote: Happening now on my Pandora, The Girl - City and Colour. Beautiful, you should all go check that out. Song/Video on Youtube
well for fucks sake of course.
so heres some pics because I'm fucking tired


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and song that is unrelated to anything here.
Why do you come here ?
And why do you hang around ?
I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry

Why do you come here
When you know it makes things hard for me ?
When you know, oh
Why do you come ?
Why do you telephone ? (Hmm...)
And why send me silly notes ?
I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry

Why do you come here
When you know it makes things hard for me ?
When you know, oh
Why do you come ?
You had to sneak into my room
'just' to read my diary
"It was just to see, just to see"
(All the things you knew I'd written about you...)
Oh, so many illustrations
Oh, but
I'm so very sickened
Oh, I am so sickened now

Oh, it was a good lay, good lay
It was a good lay, good lay
It was a good lay, good lay
Oh
It was a good lay, good lay
It was a good lay, good lay
Oh, it was a good lay, good lay
Oh
Oh, it was a good lay
It was a good lay
Oh, a good lay
Oh, it was a good lay
Good lay, good lay
Oh
It was a good lay

For the Gods made me rain blood

yeah shitty day but not really calls for an evaluation on whats important to me:

Fringe:


Being absolutely emo:


Joshua Jackson:


Positive weight rolemodels:




“No-one’s ever told me to lose weight or anything like that. I don’t rely on my t**s to have hits.

“How I look has never been a big part of my life. I’ve never looked at a magazine and thought, ‘That’s how I need to look if I want to be successful in life.’

“If you compare the way I look to big artists like, say, Katy Perry, I’m living proof it’s all about the music because there’s nothing else I’m relying on to do well.

… says Adele.

‘My life is full of drama and I won’t have time to worry about something as petty as what I look like. I don’t like going to the gym.

‘I like eating fine foods and drinking nice wine. Even if I had a really good figure, I don’t think I’d get my t**s and a** out for no one.

‘I love seeing Lady Gaga’s boobs and bum. I love seeing Katy Perry’s boobs and bum. Love it. But that’s not what my music is about. I don’t make music for eyes, I make music for ears.’

Spieling Peter:


First Love the car washer video gamer:




Old Panic at the Disco:








The Nice Internet people at Efagilitas





Dave midildo


WAIT FOR IT.


Washing Douchesbags out of my hair:


Being Emo again.


arrrgggghhhhlllleeeeflump:


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Inspiration Music:
the answer


your song

two way monologue :3


karaoke resort


Sadie


peach pear plum


81?


minor detail needs to heads

today

was pretty awesome, got to go in the dome, it was like a play place in the dark, and some parts were very bumpy, and some times I felt like I couldn't find a way out, until I felt around, and it wasn't completely dark, because of some light from opening and fan light and piano organ light omg that was creepy, and then it was red room light it was so a fucking adventure also got to travel up the vag. lol seriously shaped like a v and had a rope going thru it! the last part sort of had light too in the toy pit: dog toys, pillows, dolls, and lots of fuzzy balls. I got to go in 6 times... taking it like a champ. so red faced and tired from all that hubaloo, also great exhibits! especially the sounds. well I feel tired now, hope I can sleep, g-night!