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So going to take a break from volunteering this week, and instead going on a big trip. Its gonna be great crawling around in the dark, hope I'm last or middle and the people don't kick my butt. I can't believe I like joanna newsom's old songs... back before when she was a grandma and not a dying cat. haha. just finished this game called blue madonna and the shit got real serious, I thought there would be more plot line of why her father was so abandoning and stuff, but nope, just have the brother be like hey come back and visit me before we get to old and I die or something. Also huge plot twist with how the main character was an alcoholic and crashed into michael lombard's car when wifey was preggers, and she ended dying with bb in tow, and he went mad insane, as was going to kill me as well, patiently and slowly because I still had time to throw some paint on him and get the hell out of there. the creepiest place ever was the nylon factory, I could never be a private detective to much snooping around in creepy places. alright gotta sleep, love ya all, but mostly myself. thanks bye.

adoring this song right now

I'm head over heels for someone (I)
That I really can't deal with (deal with)
I want to block her out my mind
But I really can't do it
I tell myself this the last time
I'ma let her do this to me
Whenever we do spend time
I realize that I can't get enough of you

[Bridge - Patrick Stump (Timbaland)]
(Let me say to you)
Wipe that smile off your fucking face (Then I say to you)
Wipe that smile off your face (Then I say to you)
Wipe that smile off your fucking face (Then I say to you)
Wipe that smile off your face (Then I say to you)

[Chorus - Patrick Stump]
To be despised
To be loved
To be dreamt of
To be sought
On the inside
I don't care
Right in the middle
I'm right in the middle
To be despised
To be loved
To be dreamt of
To be sought
On the inside
I don't care
Be my unholy
My one and my lonely

[Verse 2 - Patrick Stump]
I wear scarves and hoods
'Cause they're the only poker face that I got left
And everything I love about you is a mess
Smash the mirror and break the palm readers hand
(I) want to be better than I am

[Bridge - Patrick Stump (Timbaland)]
(Let me say to you)
Wipe that smile off your fucking face (Then I say to you)
Wipe that smile off your face (Then I say to you)
Wipe that smile off your fucking face (Then I say to you)
Wipe that smile off your face (Then I say to you)

[Chorus - Patrick Stump]
To be despised
To be loved
To be dreamt of
To be sought
On the inside
I don't care
Right in the middle
I'm right in the middle
To be despised
To be loved
To be dreamt of
To be sought
On the inside
I don't care
Be my unholy
My one and my lonely

[Verse 3 - Timbaland]
Girl, just look what you've done
How could you do this to me?
I gotta put my foot down
I can't let you do this to me
I can't forget those good ole times
And all the things you've been doing to me
I wanna hit that one more time
I mean love, what your doing to me
I'ma say it loud, right here
Let's fuck in this crowd
Why we arguing
I thought me and you were supposed to be
Friends
Let's chill for minute (for a minute)
Better yet we need to heal for a minute (for a minute)
Baby, put down the knife
Sometime I wanna save ya life
Why don't you

[Chorus - Patrick Stump]
To be despised
To be loved
To be dreamt of
To be sought
On the inside
I don't care
Right in the middle
I'm right in the middle
To be despised
To be loved
To be dreamt of
To be sought
On the inside
I don't care
Be my unholy
My one and my lonely

omg this is exactly what I want in my life, fucking bitches making me hate my life, I looked in the mirror and said fuck that shit, if I want to be purdy I can do it and if I want to be a plain jane I can fucking do that as well. fyi don't go to whore house if you are not a whore, that bitch thinks shes real no way she is a fake as kim kardashians lips. I guess its a human condition to be accepted, but I must not give in when the fire is hot. Did not end up seeing starry telescopy man last week it was sort of depressing and sort of a relief, because what would I say if I was assisting in his class or such? hur dur dur, stars are cool, but not the ones in the sky the band.... the ones in my eyes. isn't that in a song that I heard before? I hope joe smo ends up coming to group cuz I miss his fine ass. alright i'm out.

I'm fucking moving to canada, getting lipo, living the hipster life, and having alot of meaningful hot relationships with people that I actually want to hang out with. Ahmazing has capitivated my heart once again, I don't think i'll ever stop crushing on her even if she is a really rancid stupid ass bitch who hates me for no reason at all, well i guess for being cool. or was that retarded, phase 1 happens when i move from this shit hole, I am going all out to become the hottest hip bitch out there and i'm fucking dragging a hot man who reminds me honey b this is what my life will consist of
being fabulous and haute coture



saving the world, one picture at an time

become the most influential person in my city

never looking back, and eliminating all the things that I HATE ABOUT MY SELF
ERADICATE AND DESTROY

AIM TO HAVE PEOPLE CALL ME, AND BE BUSY AT ALL TIMES
marry adam cohen/ no kids



Hot sex just to make it wet.


a love that will last forever

soooo cold

so I found out that mr hottie space man is gonna get his ass married, so that makes me a sad sack. also I think i'm getting to love honey b again, god the hipness of him slays me to no end. Also I think hes going on fbrt and stalking the hell out of it to find me, and shit he is going to have a field day when he sees the crap that I say about him. it might even flatter him to pieces. but probably it will make me out to be an sort of odd person, who likes wierdos like him, oh yeah dont you remember when he said that the girls that like him are srsly crazy or unkempt, well i'll just tell you i'm trying to stay off that list, but goddamn i'm gonna be a cat lady and hope that it is as glorious as it claims to be. or i'll die of mangy disease, can people die from that? oh lordy. saw paul today was it was so much fun, it made go hrmm. one reason that I am still in love with honey b is because I heard the song used in that one youtube video with the crazy ass beards yeah that one, and I could not stop smiling, also I thought of him when I was reading about photography and video making. oh snap and now hes ignoring all signs of me. and guess the fuck what? xian is friends with him holy shit, there is no hope for me, that goddamn mother fucker is a fucking hipster hidden between all his utter lameness, I knew he was going to be connected to this inner circle, he was actually invited to one of those cool drinking parties these alcoholic teens do you the ones that imitate stupid teen flicks such as superbad, I am rambling way to much gotta go to bed. hopefully honey b will talk to me again, and I will have a giant orgasm. thanks nite.

I FOUND IT!!

LOVELY AND AWESOME!
enjoiiii!
I'm starting to get into dubstep, god help me.:3
I have gotten over honey b, he is a but a lowly dork that I don't find amusing anymore probz due to his alcohol consumption and general badness. lol. makes more room for new crushy!! where he be? please god may he be in sight in the following weeks to come.
g-day to you gonna get some burrito action right now.

this fool music player will be in the middle bitzches

YOU CAN PROBZ GUESS WHY I'M STOKED.

WOW

being dumb and reading my blogs and listening to set yourself on fire all the way. why doeth honey b drink incessantly when he is underage? does he hate on his awkwardness and want to be chill and hip maybe he talks more when he drinks? or is drunk off his ass. maybe he would voom voom on me. oh dear here comes the talk again. waiting on my new crushy to add me, please GOD have him add me sooner, just being a bum on a stick. stick in a bum a rub a dub dove. hopefully hang out with my Moovie friend and have a really good time, that I forget about waiting for jose to come my way. oh and this chica who loves anime on the web said she has a cafe guy, omg me and my desperate girlz we rule, and i'm totes not alone in my adoration of a fellow man in the presence of foodly objects. smile and goodnight, may god bless your green thumb and make you feel the happiness of the sunshine make you feel like a million bucks or something.