Hello

i am going through a roller coaster full of emotions including the most infamous anxiety. Heard a old new fall out boy song saying live another day well and give em hell. It was very inspiring. I wished they still have empowering music but it doesn't resonate with me anymore. Also futures saving my life with sammys brutal honesty and jangling poppy notes that hit me in the feels. I feel like I can do a little bit now. I've been in a dire way. If I can get out of my weirdness I can do more again. Idk if personality tests are correct. What if you never had the chance to be your true self. What if ur true self is hidden from the world. What if you don't really like anything, just living day by day. Or maybe you like everything in equal amounts but don't want to stick or can stick to anything. I'm like seriously swamped with feelings of being swamped. I haven't felt this since maybe first years of com college. I've been doing Arting for a long time. I forgot what I was going say here, something remarkable charming and inspiring? Anyways feeling better but feeling apathetic to the core. My colors are still bright, but my life seems sort of on the fringes of fake. Hopefully life gives me lemonade and I bask in the lovely sunshine. It's good I want to be happy. For a couple of hours today I was looking backward into being a frumpy toad stool willy wart. Good on me I guess.