Sadness deeply

Ok I gave myself my own bad news I went to this guy I hung out with fbook and he didn't block me but he didn't add me either. What did I say or do to make him dislike me enough to not get an add back? I legitimately hung out with him so I don't see why he didn't add me back. I'm kinda in down mode. This morning started down and now the night seems likes it's going to be down as well. I'm trying not to make things seem like a emergency,  but I just feel like an alien again. A slow lonelied creep zooid that normal people can't stand. Was it the dirty jokes the volent talk? The awkward eating situation? I guess when one door closes another will open. Waiting for another friend to pop into my life. Fonty has crept back into my life, I like his comedic sensibility I bet he's only back cuz his long ways lady friend has a boyfriend. I shouldn't discount myself so much. Jayson is still here, we're like clutching at pearls here like sloth to a tree we huddle together to weather the storm. Thank goodness, I'm happy I not a loony alone. A dirty alone. A vengeful alone. Nope we are best butterflies. Whelp time for dan and Jon Time my dad was a briallant shade of orange after hearing their sweet voices it's like I was in the same room observing the scene. I keep seeing myself famous and recognized in the future but I will never forget the people who were kind and stuck with me, they are one of a kind and special snowflakes no one can deny. Aww this blog entry turned really sweet, I'd like to thank my heart and soul for churning the last part out, without yout I couldn't open automatic doors and drink slushing. Love ya, May peace be with you, and luck too.