wierd aint it

so about 20 mins ago i had the worst case of body shaming. i felt totally and utterly useless and gross. then i got my sexy on with the kill hannah pandora page and felt like a million bucks i even run the 30 secs to mars cult because hearing the band just turned me on and made me feel like a total sex kitten the real one not the court stud version. i want to have flaming hot sex and a unbridling romance with a hunk preferebly with manbearpig man he is an sexy beast. today sam lef me down so much i began to eat likena crazy whore who needs coke my coke was yogurt and felt totes guilty after that episode. i guess it really wasnt all his fault. im much more bored with him i dont even think hes hot anymore. i just think hes meh now. so sad i thought he had potential. i think finding out about his problems was a big turn off to me. as email goes we are pretty no holds bared now, i sort of wished i didnt say anything and think of him as perfect but hes not and no one is. mb except self hating manbearpig he is perfection and sweetness rolled in one. well going to watch theater love you babes especially the fat babes you are wonderful and twice as fine just the way you are!