soooooo

I've come to the conclusion that makedamnsure is a normal breathing human bean that gets fat and spends time with ugly people. but ugly people that are her family. those lucky bastards... oh god just played an game with the worst stalker imaginable I was like I'm glad i'm not as sad and psycho as that bitch who was man. are men prone to being fiercer stalkers? i donno I think it could go both ways. also her bff is making me think twice about her perfectness, like her friend is still looks like shes in high school, damn I wish I still looked the same way, but I'm actually an more self actualized person when I look at myself in the mirror which happens quite often. I think if i'm going on the makeup route I'm going to pencil in my eyebrows, but not so much as a chola effect but as a makedamnsure effect. I know she is going to reject if I add her on fbook.... sigh what can I do to make myself hot and unknown but also still well known like popular in a community? I want to move so far away from here and live in my fantasy and get a avon stylist to make me over and I want to change my name and forget my stupid retched life as a dowager ragamuffin. fuck but I do obvs love myself that i'm living my dreams within my confines of my spacious mind. I want to be hot in my own my mind, I want to fierce and want to rule a group of people and want people to envy me I want success, i never want people think to i'm lonely I want constant positive attention, I want to be your star. your shinning star uhhher yeah. lol even ezra dreams of being a hot rich guy, I wonder how much he sings is what he means, I wonder if its just a mere illusion, maybe makedamnsure is a total illusion made into this world for people to gawk at and be envious of. eh its only a few random dudes after all, dudes= sad pitiful people at times.
I want to have emma roberts life


with the courage of a dog trapped underneath an bucket