a steaming cup of green tea and a comfy chair

lets get down 2 business. whew ok email advisor and instructor to hear their thoughts about my situation. gonna take a hot shower maybe do a bit of gaming and then go to the library and return my massive amount of bookage. ehehe. last day of work tommrow, its an unknown group of people working tommorow most likely the funky bunch: cannoli, suey, nittta, mmm driana, and muah. i've learned that in order to get things done in my mixed up turbulent mind I gotta do them all and then relax and let the information settle. take one thing at a time, and things will work out, not just blah and huh? all the time, just my first time. next week gonna do trial run of train to bus to school, then maybe go back the easier way hopefully tickets will be sold and I can get my butt back home. i didn't know my counselour grew up in the area im going to future school in. eh so shes fine, and she made it out a talk person yeah gonna bail and take out the trash, love ya babes!

 

boy you just a stupid bitch and gurl ur just a no good dick

omg i have summerfied and surfied my ipod, lets hope the tunes carry me onto the wavelengths of joy and happiness. I found out i have to work on the first of jan uggggh why didnt i put dec 31, oh well get to see my ladies b4 i leave 4 evers. and maybe cannoli, hes a slow one, i think he finally gets the finallity of me leaving, he was all up in my bidnezz talking about fun fun activities, i was like are we totes gonna do that 2gether cuz you are asking me about it. hahaha oh snap. he still has a girlfriend i presume. oldie is not a dick anymore atleast to me. he even says hi before i do, hehehehe. if he wasnt a dick i prob think hes a real cutie pie mcgee. yeah i am all listening to yyy's getting my fembot on. and i'm about to collapse into a heap of sleepiness. so goodnight my buttered almonds. may your moods not control your day and you have lots of positive things to think about. love me

goodbye work i hardly knew ye

ohhhh lalalalalala drums are emo wrapped in a soft fluffy coat that warms my heart and soothes the mind as of now. so far half the crew knows i'm leaving and hales left before me, i swear i was gonna be before her. my mind is full of summer filled romances and whatever niceness summer brings. so far want to remove as much generates as possible and fill it will lovely dovey stuff of yesteryear when i had the strength of a thousand weiderbeasts. too many things fill me with woe, i gotta fix that with new music and stuff like that. alright good day lovlies gonna get ready for work.

may your days be filled with froclicking dance moves, and sweet ass magaritas.

look at that percussionist going at it. it brings a happy smile to my face

Ah man

My buddy Travis is apparently gay... And my anxiety is totally out of Carl like I can't think of anything about the negs or I go bananas stir crazy. Back to travel he has only a couple  of friends and that makes me sooo happy, like he is like me yay. Watched magic in moonlight and that lightened my bad horrible no good anxious thoughts thnx Colin firth my English princes just gotta occupyy my mind with as much happy making heavy distracting things as possible. Like non stop baby. I'm sure that will do the trick and layoff mind over mood book. That is super negatory in the life of happiness.jayson was bein supes gracious for me being so antsy it was nice, I wish I could go on this huge spiel about my worries and then laugh about it,but I don't think we can go there yet. Sometimes I wish I told ready iwas hella depressed, I just thought he would fucking drop me like a sack of potatoes. All day I felt like crying, or stabbing a imaginary being and them losing there life force. Yeah.... Super violent in thinking. When I first had my taste of disappointment I had these anxious thoughts, I don't know if they were purely anxiety. I just now it took hella months and a little bit of crying to get the fuck out of there. I hugged all the aspires and Jim gave like the best hug ever, big warm bear hug maybe that's why Janet is still together with him...I need to sleep but I also need to put my thoughts down or I'llnot be feeling very good when sleeping sondre is almost wreaking its force of music but I still havehope. Ugggg just want to get well faster. GTFO out of my funk and go to school and be alive, pat lived close to school sooo it must have not been to bad. My nerves are killing my chill mode of being. Yeah I also feel like sleeping forever and not waking up. Or have a vacation of me not doing work for a week. Maybe I should just quit. Bye Travvy bye cannoli and my most fave bye big booty you were close yet so far, we'll always be together in dreams. Ok now I feel better cuz the mention of big booty srsly he's like a miracle drug. No I'm not waking up this sat u know why? I'm quitting in a week so it won't even fucking matter anymore, it's just two fucking goddamn hours. Rant down smiles achieved. Now for oatmeal and some mouth rinsing. Hope the love bug bites you all y'all are special elves. Hehehehe

who feels like crap

i do, and my comp is feeling the burn. i've decided to delete my favorite browser in order to get things back to shape. hopefully it works. i feel way anxious again, my mother says i'll be fine in due time. i wish i had more friends i could cry to. i feel defeated again, i was doing so well too, i dont know why i suddenly feel like things are crumbling and i'm not safe and sound. maybe its the dark weather and the rain. im on some anxiety meds and hopefully that helps soothe my inner demons. im trying to get shehim back on poddy but my right clicker is in cahoots recently. yeah... some days are dark, darker then most. i feel like someone tipped me over and i'm hanging on a ledge of emotions. jayson i wished we were even closer, i've told you things that i haven't told anyone. that makes me feel closer to you. i wish there was a get better fast card, but oh ive been feeling is depression and loss of control of anxiety. i can fake it, but i donno. i think if i continue to take the pills i'll be fine. just i see. :) smiles everywhere. i'm go get a good nights sleep too. love you! and cheers.

ooga

omg ts's new album is off the chain. im like doing diva style moves. lol and bff is off in a different state chillin with the fam, argh i missssss him. boo you whore. soooooo i get to see big booty this sat if I choose to go to the meeting. my compy is doing crap spells and i hate it soo much, i need a fast compy to search the interwebs for my delights. i just saw a cursing shakespeare paper wallet that reminds me of teh sam. i hope he doesnt take it the wrong way, prob not he'll be like thats ever so sweet me lady. and then i'll melt into a puddle of my own goo. yeah im ever so obsessed with him i almost put 4 s's see my homo gay come out. sooo if i'm gay should I find a boy whose a lesbian into mcr like really and maybe could get into the futuros maybe a fan of stars, likes feminist comedy and horror. i donno so far the guise i'm into are into horror and uhhh psychonaut is back with his psycho girlfriend, shes pretty and nice and needs people and cares for psychonaut and i think thats what matters most. im even coming around to liking honeyb's gifey, she hates kids. i can respect that sentiment.  other wise im a jealous cow. uggh why do i screw up in the boy department. why can't some i like, be into me? ugggh i wish I was that blonde chick on the pov, would guise be tounge tied, would they dare, would i get harrassed like crazy balls? would teh sam be totes into me? i donno. i wonder if hes soft like a kitten inside and he just smiles to hide the fact that he has huge depression social complex problems. real life problems, or is he riding the wave of fame? and beaming with pride that him and his lil buddies are playing the big leagues now, hes on wheeties boxes now, he came from the bottom of the hill to get to the mid range with such bands such as welkthemon and imagining drago malfoys. uggh  they don't fucking deserve to be on the stage futuros sings on. oh god its gonna be teen madness. period was gonna go into my sad sack life ambitions never achieved. but i dont want to make this post a downer. goddamn vireos eye is deep as fuck, i still can't understand what hes saying. I just love the ending tho where goes ahoodeewah ahoodeewah favorite part, if ever crowd surf and make it onstage i want to be at that part. so the generates concert was sooooo very good, if satifised all the crevices in my heart and no hella unchill lesbians but a very good smelling guy think bounce softner kept getting into my area i somehow stayed in a good place throughout and the crowd was widly dancing yet they were very polite conscious i think this crowd was as good as jacksmann crowd.. each concert gets better and better. they didnt play when they fight tho sad panda. lol garek was all that makes me a sad panda i love that sweetheart and just want to play him the song of my people, when hes not getting on my nerves hahaha i have a love hate relationship with him kind of cannoli. like i like seeing him when #1 manager is there but i absolute detest when mop manager is there its like hes fucking creeping around checkin if im doing any work, being snooty when he catches me off guard, goddamn fucker. otherwise he is super cute. uhhh for some reason i may have friday nights off from work omg omg im goin 2 fuckin party at the art museum or go to off the grid and eat to my hearts delight. omg omg big booty worx at the time i may be starting to work omg omg i can finally talk to him real talk b4 i bounce outta work and go to school omg im like kicking myself this pleases me very much if that shall happen its like all my sexy dreams have come true. except teh sam not being in it..... maybe one day when we meet again i'll better ONEEEEEE DAAAAYYY. AYYY. lovely lovely. i feel like dissappointing things that happen keep happening but i'm still chugging along singing my song,  im ok girls and guise. i got accepted to #2 college and decided to try it out for a few months if i end of liking it i'll probably stick around if not i'll bounce to #1 permitting i get into that place which is most likely from what i hear from the gossip, god people from that school hate it so much and tell peeps to get away, it really did threathen my positively outlook on the school. sooooo shall i talk 2 big booty and tell him there aren't that many youngins around, attractive bootiful youngins..... x nay on the last eh? and robby continues to talk to me... i feel good. and hippie nurse has a veracious mind haha truthful ok getting better at using big people words haha. sometimes i feel bad about what i say to jayson like im being to confident or being too bitchy or complainy but then he takes it in stride and serves me my own back to me, thats how i know we are bff's he cares enough to be real. i just want to be in inside a the warm flesh of freshly slain teddy bear. ha you thought i was gonna say deer naw thats gross bitches. ooooh i just rembered at the end of snowpiercer spoilers: he ate the children?? and he liked it, and then everyone dies really movie? way to make a great heartwarming ending. well the asian and black kid made it out... ever soooo resourceful ethnitcities. yeah thanks for reading. and nancy priest guy is getting married and i think hes gifey is a feminist so i think thats pretty cool. yeah l8er until i think of wondrous dreams until we meet again my lovely buttered almonds

 

By right of you, I can't endure
In the light of things, I can't ignore
In spite of all the rose's thorns, and hopeless works*

FOUND IT.

Oh ass snap

Uuuh daughter... I saw big booty at work, it has been at least an damn long month. Omg he was soooooooo hawt and he popped out of nowhere and his bothy was like banging omg he has like femi booty like boon mg and he was wearing a v neck omg lord loves a working neck. Drools I practacilly had I just came face every time he was around. I hope he didn't get too creeped out. Soooo when I was going on break I think he was leaving, sonata work screwed me over again dammit if only I brought a soup I could have talked to the wondrous unicorn in a hipster sheep. I was gonna ask cannoli if he knew that big booty fellow or that hottie fellow the only young guy working today hehehe. But I still want my chances with him even if it will prob never happen ever. I was soo enthralld he made my whole fucking day shines and new ohhhh like a stamp trap tatted for the very first time ooh like a stam trap next to my heart ooooh.  I was this close to naming work ooh that won't be good. And I managed to find out of a way to get out bringing claw hands home, say I'm doing groceries. I really wished I wored mornings I would get to still the wondrous big booty, ooooooh I know why Andytalks to to big booty cuz he word the same time and he prob  asked her question or vice versa. Ugggh wh can't I be more approachable. I'm nice too. Give me a chance big booty. I wonder if he bought anything today. I'm getting pretty fricken tired I was goin write a poem well here it goes anyway. Big booty you are so fruity. I loved your v neck all the ladies want  to take you to the dis oh tech. Oh your walk so dope. Why shall I ever mope. Oh yeah because we don't work the same hours it is ever so foul. But u like crystal castles so I think that'll duel. Hrmm next time you are here on on sale day, I'll be sure to stick around cuz i wanna see my own frown go upside down. I want to to ur ass, but don't give me no sass alas u are not that kind of guy so let's go to Wendy's and share a fry. Mmmm fries don't attract those flies with your honey, cuz not everyone makes my day sunny.
Thanks folks have a good night and don't attract to many flies hehehehehehe.

Waah

Futoros r gonna b at the local Xmas gathering with fall out boy Patrick and Sam 2gether swoon.so things have looked up for me. I'm doing good at work, talking to maor peeps. Being generally nice and scaring the crap out of people randomly. Scored a princess outfit so I know what Icahn use for the next few hallowwenens so   Y packet of graphic stuff made it to the future school on time and ready to be stamped approved cuz I'm a positive nancy. Or positive Pete, Patrick? Oh god but those concert ticks r like fucking 70 bucks and I will prob have to fight struggle to the death to get a good place. It's not even worth it to sit anywhere else. Especially 4 futuroslike u have to b mondo close in order to get the full effect. I'm reading like crazy so that's pretty good, usually I skimp on reading and go do other stuff. So I'm chugging away at my large pile of books I'm a little more than halfway there so I believe in myself. So far jayson has been asking me if I want to hang out, and it's been really sweet because I need to know if this friendship is working out, I don't want to be always asking hi to hang out. Plus he drives me places. I know the world revolves around me but I'm trying to get others in it b4 I go made with crazy, alone and that is just so. Isfourtonatr. Williihave only. 30 mins to sleep or mb I'll just start cooking lunch 4 myself. I really want to expose the kids to jayson I think he'll like their off brand uh our. We'll thnx. 4 reading. Haha I so just thanks me for reading. I do get hits because I link pics from google images but eh I donno if they actaully stay to listen to me whine and dine. Waaah I need to see big booty he only works twice a week and one day I'm not even there the other I don't show up till he left for a hour. I deeply miss is royal ass and his Twinkie like features like his laugh and his big nose.... Oh they also were in a band, but at least I could consume twinkies band booties band is noise experimental hahaha or mermaid rock... If you catch my driftwood. L8er my taters.

argh a update

soooooo I had a bad bad two days a few days ago and I need to up the meds. hallows eve ah I got to psychonaut for all of 20 seconds. first I was chilling in the crowd and randomly see him, then i vamoose cuz i think hes gonna scramble if he sees me... but too late he sees me whatev i go watch a movie and a few mins l8er he comes in into the room omg i think he was batman or some shit. i said hey he said hi and he hangs out in the front room once again and he is gone for good in a few mins, pure sadness, i didnt even look at him properly ok scratch that i did. met a dude that worx next door to me. and he is kind of a alcholic so idk about out friendship. uggh gee is sooooo cute but his music still sucks ass. and a couple choice actors and musicians have gradumacated from the school i want to go to. i think gee went fuzz punk crazy lol he thinks he can but alas its not working. so i do have some likers from my work so my hesistant alien feels were kind of all out of balance. andddddddddd. cannoli started to talk to me again we talked movies, halloween, and bad fashion. he is not a huger douchebag than already been stated. omg he looked at me like I was a good bff ehehehehehehe or maybe hes just bored and a sympathetic sweetheart. hahaha frank has a emo fuzzy alt band it sounds like bright eyes lol poseur, and he is cute, its not good either. uggh blood everywhere. aww qt smile at the end. gosh darn when cannoli gets to be sweet again its just sooooo damn contagious i just want to die. lol he was like this hanger is stuck on meee and i was like never let me go cannoli hahaha titanic love. oh god i just want go to work and get over it. uggh chrome is not working and its making me angry as hale. yeah soooo all of my college apps have been turned in so just waiting for acceptance emails and mails and what not. god i just want to fall in love with a cannoli and hold hands and skip through the daisies and rock out at punk concerts and then mack out forever until chapped lips. ok eww. well i think i'll go make some fish talk to yalls later.

Booyah

2 eric h songs are playing at my job I got 1 out of those two ya. Also there is this 50 yr old married dude who wants to fob ok friend me and it's creeping me the fuck out I want to see what other peeps he added its creepy plus he has a daughter. Ugggh . Why tontne creeps like me? Ok gonna go to bed day bye

Gah

I feel like a prick again. Am I that shellfish? Do I really deserve to be feeling so terrible. Omg the fountain is feeling me even if has nothing to my situation. Agh dammit Sam writes such sweet words forever. I really hope he's not some jack of tales in disguise I'm gonna just be blind and go nope he is a perfect peach and he is pure of heart. Even tho his lovers hate him. Maybe because he aired his dirty laundry. Omg I think I need to hear this song again and again. Love hath eternally has brought its warm arms into my sweet enveloping heart. Dammit where does all this stupid ass poetry come from? Idk my heart is alive with the soul of lovers everywhere. Lord that song was almost 6 mins long. I think I love almost all the futuros songs. Omg Robby high fiver me I feel a lil better about relationship. She was a bit bossy today but otherwise she was much more receptive to me. At first mexi girl was kind of like this but she quickly changed her toned. I asked jayson if he wanted to go to the concert he's gotta pay me back cruz he said yes. I wonder why SAMs lovers hate him. Frankly I would be so happy if he wrote about me hahahhaha Sam is capped 4 some strange reason. What strange wilderness did he cross to make them so cross. See maybe he's not a gentleman of the winer but a fast ferrous flitter of the summer. I hate my heart. He is sin ful in nature. Or not whatever. This love feels good and right just let it go I say. Let it flounder into the deep seas and into the long night where he's warm caressing lyrics will hold me through the nights cold aide. Ok now I'm just talkin bull. Oh we'll I'm in love. Of course.

oh i have other plans too

uhhhhh so as i said i have wanted to talk to big booty rooty tooty hahah hes actually having a sale right now and its like big hip sale haha more like big "ass" sale lol.
1. talk to big booty. "try saying hi"
2. introduce self to big booty
3. be at the motha fucking fitting room when he is there, i somehow like go on break when he gets out of the fitting room its redic i never see him leave. maybe he just takes his clothes and high tails it to france. lol
4. await his friendship of good hope.
5. mack out with him when we are lovers, cuz hes secretly into fatties.
6. sheesh im not that fat.
7. and im cute so fuck that shitty shit, im a catch he will love me for who i am dammit.
8. idonno if i'm on a break with him, introduce myself then, and then be like omg like that guy into wierd porn places on snl? hahahahaha ..... :/ naw not even stalking you, just came up in my lil ol brain.
9. that'll hook line and sinker him, bros love name associations. goddamn he is a fucking hottie i cant even.

snappies

i think ima getting in to the frisco school of my heart and dreams and while there i shall listen to the miraculous sounds of the lerks. so to celebrate on my completion of my massive app ima gonna try to get massbrochillness even if not a white boy from the east side. no sirreee. buuutt i still want to get my jam on hahahahahahaha dear lord. oh look the support band has a fully clothed female synth player holla at ya gurl ya gurl ya and they hella chill. that'll be the cooler to massbro's party hardy ways. oh god apparently their whole set is a whole 30 mins goddamn thats a fucking goddamn short show. this is mucho disapoint in my books. omg but they do that david hasselhoffmeyer song wtf. it was kinda cool tho. umm and lots of tits in neon and i think they have outlasted their stay..... half empty halls here you come. ummm and covers of rap stars. im like getting chick pox haha chicken bumps in the worst way. uugghh futuros please save this soul. aww sam really fucking brought it to freshno im sooo glad he made is 100 kijillon percent, for being fucking 1 hour late. he was soooooooooooooo gooooood. the who band was good but damn he fine. ok over the chills of bros, kinda dont wanna be there with thousands of frat dudes. i want to sleep too. so off i go into the night with my heart strings tied or are they undone. love always your friend hahahahahahaha cuz bb u the best. :)

Oh deary

Roots tooth big fat booty is the only guy who has admitted to liking star girl hehehehehehe I know it's like my gabby also he is a hipster who likes purity ring and to t Aotorond sadly he has a cast of adoring females who want the dick. Idk he he'll be interested in me. He is friends with a lot of hot girls. Yeah thnx 2 meeting I got his name hahahahahahaha cannoli is being. Nice again. And sharing food with me. And Robby does not hate me. She is appreciative. I think my she thought don't do enough shit but finally did my duty. Yeah so that's pretty. Inch all the new things that happened. Omg and big booty is sooo nice he listened to chatty girl  when he could have been go away frodo. Lol she doesn't look that. Uh like a troll jk folks she is a sweetheart. Yeah I've been feeling the burn from work. I want to kind of quit. Like they are making us work till 11 now and it's a bunch of shit. Yeah so no one from pro shop will be at work tommorow so good luck nothing of value  was moved from hiding storage. Galah  note to self don't be around Ireland when closing she will grab you with nasty hands. Just stay away far away. Yeah I'm gonna ask for reduced hours. And hopefully the new people will take the shitty closing hours. Ugh I'm actually only closingthree times only out of the14 days, so I should be happy. Yeah.... I'm alaskaair steal all the hotties pics it's go time, hahaha it's pretty damn easy to find people when u got a bag of tricks. Goodnight

hey

yall I just had a wonderful hangout with my bff jayson. he soooo awesome, we got great ass food for the cheap and then hung out in the walnuts. lol and laughed at stupid shit and made up moar dirty jokes. it was pretty good. after we watched coming to america hahaha one of my top movies. i'm like srsly so happy I met him. I think it was good faith that brought us 2gether. hahahaha and we made fun of stalker people, it wasn't our stalkers tho so it was even better. I need to eat then go sleep like a big ass baby. so much ass, all i think about is the ass. lol i'm gonna kick that ass like we mean business. because shit is real heavy, u gonna drown.

omagah

teh sam totally hate fucked the audience at the end of live with jools ehehehehehehe omg I am sooo sold. and my worst nightmare lerks is in love with adam levine apparently. ugggh, I hate them sooooooooo much because of stupid work I suppose. hahahahaha the generates tickets are sold out again I think this time its for realz. and their album is 5 bucks on amazon wtf, sell yourselves short why don't you. omg sams pants were so goddamn tight omfuckinggod. I think i've just been slam danced. I would totes dance with teh sam I wish I were a hot swedish model who was woman cuz I dont think he goes for guize even tho they try hahahahaha i kind of want to see the jools video again for the sexy and the lolz i don't know i'm pretty conflicted I also need gifs of said happening please jesus.

my dream has come through sam doing the bird

ah crap man no gifs well I tried. after this post I realized my concert was a better performance than this one but the grindin' made up for it cuz i'm always up for a grind. oh god.

Let's write a random blog

Sweet jefe bus I'm going insane in the membrane I think the only thing to cure this ailment is makedamnsure omg she is so fab but I'm pretty fab too I'm a loner with a boner but dammit I'm still hot to trot now I'm thinking I'm ve got a lady boner n myself ugh I rather have it with someone else ok not that person I've been obsessing about. Pointless blog because I'm now in love with the leeks bloody nourish good looks and horribly charming stories that are forever pointless. Ok I'm gonna try to sleep y'all behave now!

ed westwicke

yeahhhhh lerks is still 100 times more swoonworthy than ed. uggh double eww hes friends with vanek uggggh. to the max. i hope i see bigglesworth at work, he is consistenly nice and notices me aww hes such a sweet heart no i'm not in love with him we're just buddies. sweet lil buddy.  whaaaaaaa and hes one year older than me? wtf? like that would ever happen. thinking delousinal thoughts again. yeah in la la land i'm hot shit and everyone wants to smell me. hahaha or puke. oh yeah there was this archie comics feat lady gaga and like taylor swift and goddamn taylor lautner i was like wtf is going on. oh yeah didn't archie die or something? maybe got reincarnated into a wolf human hybrid if you catch my drift. sigh again i miss jayson we didn't hang out last week and it bummed me the fuck out. I don't want to call him again or msg him I want him to do that. and maybe we wont even get to hang out at the ritzy college cafe. cuz hes stoopid work duties. wow all my past tweets were embarrsing fan girl shit. uggh and some random ass goth chick who im not even friends with anywhere. i feel like posting a beautiful pic spam how about some jack? to spice up the night.

thanks for reading and watching i'm out like a popped corn

hehehehehe

sooooooooooooooooooooo guess who i met??? twas the lerks hahahaha and I asked him how the fucking fuck is he? and he was like i'm good how are you? and I was like swoon double swoon and then I said can I get a picture and he was like sure! lol and he was practically lerking in my picture lol then a nice girl offered to take a picture and in a split second I hopped on the sitting place and placed my tender arms around his angelic bony ass body and was cheesing it up and he was not amused eh I looked good he looked good its kay and its a super hd pic. lol. I did it yalls I talked to a hot guy without dying or fainting. and cannoli was a bacon today he was twice the fat and he was kinda snarky today... ohhhh ur working on recovery yeah YOU MISSED A SPOT. idonno if he was moody 2day or hes just being a royal ass. saw big booty and he had the booty on lock. but chattygurl was all up in his grill he like had to say i gotsta go mamachita before you talk my ear off and i have to go back to work cuz i'm on brekkies. soooo back to lerks he was absolutely fab like it rivaled jacks mannequin? wtf that never happened b4 never. no obnioxious lesbians just me being obnoxious sorry but i couldnt help taking shots of his hot hot stage presense, he is srsly a norish god of all gods. hahahaha I don't really think hes modest quoting him "the drawer made me look douchebag gossipgurl handsome" uhhhhh dude you look 100 times better than any dude on that show even fishy lips where is he? I miss thee. I'm pretty sure he knows this cuz he is a selfie king. omg and alot of his pics are half naked. I'm like dying absolutely dying. I miss oldie like he worx mornings now ugggh he is such a good worker and helps me with my side unlike cannoli who did maybe 2 rows and hit it and quit it. and robby is kinda not here for me at all, like idk if she thinks I don't like her or she doesn't like me off the bat. oh so cannoli is going out with the wicked bitch of the west cuz its freezing fuck. ummm yeah cuz they apparently went shooting 2gether with her lil sis and her and her sis are like bffs to the max so yeah they have been 2gether for atleast 2+ years ugggh I guess dickbags go with bitch faces. this is deeply saddening to me. I have a new friend in our new worker even tho hes positively useless at this point. all he fucking does is recover and go backs for 5 hrs? in an area that I don't even go to, where the flying fuck is he? like does he hide in the bathroom srsly? maybe hes doing books or housewares but who even can spend that much time there? like really? can you please help in mens and womens section you big jerfoff? ok back to lerks hahahahaha woowowowow yeah he was really adorable and hot and didn't make me feel guitly for staring at him like a stalker through a tree fort I made specially for the occasion(s) hahaha. he has a fbook but i'm pretty terrified of getting rejected. apparently some fans have made it unto his friends list sooooooo idk. I dont even really want to try anyways. its not like the kipster who doesnt even play with me any more :( kipster senpai please notice me. so psychonaut got a army shave and he looks as ugly as his insides are soory not sorry he kind of is a jackass of a epic degree. still cold. and i need to see the new season of revenge because my boy jack and my gurl emily are still kicking ass. no moar uglie oldie guy but apparently lots of victoria stupid evil bitch. no sorries for her forever. this post is like a 2 hour rant. yeah so I have no real crush at work anymore i take that back big booty rooty tooty is my love I should come in 3 hrs early and just stalk him. omg I have no freaking life, i hope he doesnt notice i'm lurking in the shadows and the corners waiting on him, and prowling away like i'm doing work, yeah i am but sometimes i'm just in a section for no good reason and i just want to stop and stare for awhile. i fucking hate maroon 5 they play their music 5 or more times. my pc is overheated but still I write to my hearts content. some random old guy was like i see you reading books, you like books thats good, good luck.. I was gonna say if you had to fucking do books you would goddamn read all the books fuck ya couch. haha and luckily my off manager didn't yell at me for not technically working for about a hour. I found the pricing guidelines book 4 graphic artists so I might be getting that and a awesome lumpy space princess pillow that will prob gather dust until I buy it and then have to wash it again. i'm really proud of myself I talked to the lerks as planned next stop generatesville i added the honeyb like dude and hope he adds me soon hehehehhehe if at all? yeah still in love with honeyb im like a crack addict that can't stop. I still have the mix up, i'm a goddamn loser. guess what I can be loser if i want because its my own goddamn self fuckers. today I'm sooooo pissed off for some reason well 1 had to recover furniture to books then had to goddamn do purses to men. i'm not a goddam fucking robot you can train to do bullshit work. i have no faith in the nice manager #2 anymore. only with nice manager #1, literally made me only do front womens, like a proper lady should do. haha. oh god I love myself and continue to stare at how lerks is omg we are both hot. dammit janet. somehow hes older than the sam and continues to look boyishly handsome doing it. sigh i should get to bed b4 I break my hemmeroid or whatever.

you've got me aching all the time

omg I got generates tickets for some reason (heh its at the right place cuz I wasnt really looking that hard) that would have been bad lol. I'm soooo happy I could cry into my spaghetti. or my oats lol. why you gotta eat dry oats? I'm gonna marry her anyway.  gonna dance my motha fucking ass off no fucking obnoxious lesbians will get in my way of  dance partay. so long conchillbro maybe I will maybe I wont maybe I dont what I dont say to me say la vie!! hehehehehehehe omg omg I am sooooo fucking exciting excited for generates moarrrr than lerks soooooorrrrry lerks but I just had my heart fall out my ass and then fall back in succession. thanks chaps for doing that to me I went through a mild depression cuz i "couldn't" get tickets at the time stupid bros. yeah I'm gonna do the shimmy down the stairs or up the stairs. lol yayyayayayayayayyayayayaya gonna gonna do it up. gonna look the most fucking hipsterist piece of shit you have ever fucking goddamn motha fucking seen!!!! ah yeah and bam it goes!
OLE!

elepants as big hales

lol so bigglesworth is back on cdc, good for him but I kind of miss him around the store. I don't really see superbooty much unless I come early. When I don't talk to cannoli much he tends to talk to me more, so I'll keep that in mind. I think he and the gifey are still 2gether. tommorow is the lerks! i'm so excited. I finally gotten over most of the disappoint from the ticket concert fiasco. I hope son brings a band cuz its gonna be kinda lame with him and his lofi guitar. I tracked my personality when I'm at work im snarky, bossy, dumb, organized, and smart, and have a case of the uhs lol. these schall shoes suck and they said for tired active feet, bitches aint shit. I only use bitches as a term defined as being nasty lark to a huge degree, not being a girl. yeah I guess i'm calling the kettle black by saying it, my bad. its the influence of others around me. yeah so i've been feeling blue for a couple of days. I always have to keep in mind that i'm not alone and people love me and I love myself and i'm worth it every single second of every single day. keekz futuros is keeping me sane again, love them boiz trust me as a friend because I would do anything for you and I want to see us through <3 all="" away="" concert="" especially="" forevers="" from="" futuros="" go="" gotten="" has="" i="" it="" love="" my="" nbsp="" no="" p="" self.="" soul="" stronger.="" the="" thought="" to="" would="" you="">

ah man

conflicts, cannoli is still talking to me, but a little more intensity. hes quite the charmer, but still no dice, he aint the one anymore hahahaha hes not my SUNSHINE anymore. uhhh and a gurl from that band totes died so sad. yeah soooooo lerks is still not sold out and the supporting band is soooo tiring but they been on tour with purity ring wtf I thought they would atleast have some sick beats and a really great hook. watched smurfs 2 and it was sooo happy making, I love them blue folk. uggh the support band sounds like a wannabe grimes ugggh. atleast its like girl power I bet lerks is slamming that. and here and there. lol or not. hahaha he is soooo physical now like he moans and groans on this album hahahaahahaha then the gurls swoon. an 21 show hopefully no obnoxious lesbians they always seem to find their way next to me and screw me up royally. I was totes trying to get my groove on and your massive lions mane is getting in my way. stupid fucks. so I finally got over doing mopping its just here and there but not everywhere so it takes me about 10 mins to do it and touching gross wet things is to a minamal. omg I have like magic hands I rubbed my aching feet and they feel soooo good. yay nice manager that kicks us out if we stay at work too long!!! yay everybody dance now!!! yeah I feel like watching another goddamn movie. yeah I dont know what to say and its kinda fun making up titles for art work, It should be a job, I would rule in it. tata for now!!

im not done yet being a narc

hahahaha you can't join the sondry party unless you are my b/f or I trust you with my music. hahaha prob my b/f cant be invitied cuz i'm gonna eyefuck him like no tommorow almost like teh sam sorry it he was just too magical i couldn't not do it lol.
bam here it goes: ah man

omg

the lerks is mine bitches sweet sass molass generates door closed once again but the lerks door opened hahaha and hasn't been sold out yet. oh well I really adore him even though he sucks at selling tickets apparently. oh god I have found a new light of my life... and its not cannoli thats now his name because he is fattening and not healthy on the other hand joestar hahahahaha the third bigglesworth totes made my day omg he cracked an accent and made my crappy ass day super fly and out of sight. dear lord he was a bright rainbow in the shitstorm. I do not want to mention what happened. it was fucking terrible. uggh so lerks does have a new album and it sounds like that middle album where he wears like 4 sunglasses at a time because he is just too awesome. but he is dancey as hale in his recent videos. i think joestar bigglesworth will totes be at work tommorow along with cannoli. cannoli has been less frequent with his gifting visits and chatter, its like he developed a cold shoulder to certain people that is me one of them. today during shitstorm I really thought I wouldn't make it thru the day like I thought I was gonna freak the fuck out and peace. omg brad the nicey dude who I didn't introduce myself to somehow knows my name is gone, fuck is it cuz of cdc shit, it was wasn't its just way too much work for a couple of people. im still in a fragile state, i miss my room. I sort of feel like deleting generates.... lol cuz theres this hole inside of me because I couldnt get tickets, damn me why couldn't I go sooner. its okay I found the lerks. thankfully very close so I can party my damn ass off maybe I will flirt with the lerks. ohgod here goes my dream fantasty gone haywire. but atleast if I see him i'll tell him hes mad dope and hes mad dope for liking miley and futuros consectively honey badger dont give a shit he is honey badger incarnate. alrighty gonna get ready for this lerky concert yes yes yes babby yes. lol I still dont know where the fuck those lyrics are by, apparently its like 80s shit. ooooooooh and omg I have another newish crush name bootytime hahaha hes got a big ol booty damn son. lol and hes sorta friends with cannoli hahahaha so at that time I was like no way!!!??? hahaha. i did the worst fucking hair flip in the goddamn world hahaha he was truely preplexed im sure. he was like I gotta meet that gurl cuz she just tried to hair flip magitize me hahaha he hasn't talked to me unfortunately and I totally bombed out the fitting area when he was trying shit on. lol he has some pretty neat kicks. truely esquiste human being.. so yeah I have a new bff shining armor and new crush bigbootymahoney lol god this is sooooo corny. i feel like watching a epic  comedy to erase my lingering tragedy. or not i'm super tirrrrreeeeddd. from working hard da man said I did a super job, I feel good. goodnight folks

Lol

Dalyker got a medal for being mr positive. Awwwwww maybe he was beng serious about hanging out with fatties. Even tho that's an sensitive word. Haha but he is so sweet. I'd like a boyfriend who that sweet. No wonder he's got meander his spell. Ugh she wore a black mini. That should have been me and she is kind of a douchebag.  Her and her sister. Ugh they seem to be on this huge ego trip. I hope dalyker stays away from that attitude. Ll maybe he won't he walks around like it ain't nothin but a chicken wang on a strang. And I think he thinks he's black. Lol omg no wonder tha siege of him came out at work. It's all that he can be he lives the hard knock emo life. Nerdy popular jock life. If you are nerd I'm a nerd. Let's wear our pocket protectors together it wll be so fetch. If I was in high school I prob want dalyker I'll be like that's one cool dude too bad he likes terrible chicks who suck. Forget what I said I hate her. I dontbapprove and I hope therein relationship crashes and burns. And hopefully won't be the rebound. Uhhhh so tired now. Thanks for reading off to more generates.

Omg

Yeah a hot min ago I remembered that I finally got dalykers whole name. And it did not disappoint On my way! Lord he is a fucking goodman mess. And I approve of his girlfriend even if she likes the biebs. He hasn't updated sans his awful depressing emo phase. But I think that's like his secrets but why would he make them such public. Omg now I'm gonna die when I see him. He is soooo embarrassing, he is even more worse off than imagined. Sure I think he is on a sports time and has a hot girlfriend, but that  doesn't change the fact that deep down inside he is the biggest loser ever. Like he is a bigger loser than me. Omg  I still like him though because he liked talked to me first and was super sweet. And continues to be a perfect peach. Omg they started going out a day befo my birthday haha zing. re my birthday wtf. So there anniversary will always be aroundomg I have the worst case of goosebumps. Like srsly I'm dying over dalykers true identity. And he doesn't even wear his shades in real life. Omg omg and he's relationship is something out of nick sparks movie uhhh book. Lord have mercy. I can't take him seriously anymore omg I can't believe I found him. It is always a glorious day when you find your crushes deep dark secrets. Hahah and the chick with the pink hair is friends with him. No oldie which is pretty funny considering they hang out like a lot. Or go get. Meals or chat about hoes or something. Oldie prob says all girls are angels shut your fat face you dick bag in his head. Oldie is like a awesome gentleman who gets scared when he gets mad wasted, so no more wasty times for him I suppose. Omg I can't believe I remembered his name. I've been looking for ages and hours and years omg thanks thanks to my genius I hath succumbed the ultimate password. For somerreason I don't think that he actually updates his friendly skies book. I can't wait to see him tommorow with my new found info in my head. Jokes will be cracked but behind his back safe within the confines of my head Doncaster know?eeeeeeeeeeeeee I just want to scour the whole goddamn internet for this beauty like I'm so so very happy and elated. I can't even. I can't even go to sleep. Must find all modes of social networking. Lord knows I'm gonna go all out especially because I've got the deeds. Yeah then I'll sleep and hope to have sexy dreams of him and I lol where he is wearing a tango suit and I'm in a red hit red mini and we are doing the tango of love hotchachaha

ode to dalyker

could I compare thy to a midsummers day
you are light as a fey
I'd like to make to make you smile
I would walk a mile
but seriously you are great
thanks for being my best mate

wasn't that lovely? dalyker is so inspirational. and psychonaut thinks im a annoying twat. or he is just a shy guy looking for a good time, (at home). hahaha but seriously he prob was home, playing video games or some shit. omgz makedamnsure's bestie was at savres omg I recognized the huge ass red signs. so her bestie is a chepo depo, so mb makedamnsure is a cheapo depo as well. prob not she is the hbic. soooooo deepest sadness imaginable I only get to see dalyker 2 times a week, once for a long time and once for 10 mins. I wish his gurl didnt break break his heart. should I watch eternal sunshine and crey my eyes out with jayson? omg. I feel like watching kith today tho gonna make myself happy. I should cook some pork cuz im a hungry hungry hippo. gaaaaaahh my weight fluctuates soooooo fast I gain and lose 5-10lbs every two fucking weeks. uggghh why can't I just stay thin like some peeps. maannn generates are soooooo good i just want to dance on the beach in the short shores and become a fairly of immediate glory.  oh yeah me and jayson may start crafting and cooking together yeah bitccch lol I sound so domestic. well gonna upload some songs and groove byess

Boo you whore

We'll well well dalykr is kind of a sexist prick but he is still very much attractive. I'm getting Oa hugelowering of standards .nwell I do like psychonaut still. He is still a single pringle. So I heard dalyker gofer is being all sorts of mad at him and he was like your eating alone . Hehehe I wish he'd go on break with me again but alas the lighs or stars have not aligned. From the horses mouth he said he rather be alone than be a with a bitch or another girl. I was major sad panda. Oh yeah he had panda typing on on a keyboard sweater it was so cute. Also he said he wears the most outrageous thrift shirts he can possibly find. He is so adorable. I think he basically means I think bitches as in mean girls ut I can't help but be a little miffed. I'm getting so tired. Guggenheim I had to do two fucking whole racks because my lazy sass co workers didn't want to help. Fuckers. Goddamn and dalyker was kind of distance from me. He talked to  almost all the girls more than me. Only Felili was not talked to. I think she doesn't get to be around that many people. Like if she was I bet she would talk to maor peeps. I think Maria left us. I feel kind of sad we were friends. My eyes are crawling backwards so I think I'm going to go to sleep now or something, love you all . I got goosebumps when dalyker talked I think I still like him. Also I need to hang out with psychonaut post haste, before his singleness expires and jello will be for two unless I can help it. Prey that I can go the distance or he can go the distance then love will be mine. I'm not that disconcerting I woner what my spell check puts for that word haha goodnight my little butter balls, May visions of Sam doing stripper moves mingle in your head. :)

The great one

Hath forgotten the masses, been waiting a long ass time for the sam  to update the robot and he hath finally like yesterday. So it's a fucking no go for me. At least nick form ftf added me hehehehehehe. He also likes the futuros. I've been waiting hella days for him to add me. Things are bright as he'll, so I think I'll be just fine. Also gotta go attend a geek meetup real soon or I'm gonna mirder  myself. Gosh psychonaut it single sigh I can't fucking believe it it's been a fucking year like a couple. Months than before his usually drop off point. Ready to go to dank raves with him.oh god and fake liking it too maybe I'll even come to like it.hehehehe night

When one door closes one door opens

Ah shit fuck psychonaut is moths fucking single bitchs omg fucking god. He is like so delicious. Hahahhaha bye dalyker hellllo psychonaut. His ex has not put in relationship  so  the coupling s finally over bitches. I'm coming him like a dark black cock noooo a dark horse I think he would enjoy the black cock oh shit I better get on that bidnass b4 another fuckng gremlin stills him awaysteals him god I fuckng hate not being able to see the fuckng entry. Omg I'm like so fucking happy I might have to spend every open day to hang out with this prick omg omg I don't think he likes me enough but I sure as he'll ain't lying down for this I am gonna go full charm on this fucker he will not know what the fuck hit him. Fuck yeah it's go time bitches I should record this llol. Found my portfolio it's sew awesome some slight paragraph weirdness but otherwise looks pretty damn awesome

Omg my workplace is morally imoroll I can't spell

Eh at least we aren't perfect. All dalyker bared his soul to me and was  like when ifirst came here I didn't want to talk to anyone and kept to myself. And omg he then said after a few  months he got over it and being social came naturally to him. Oh god in the end of work we had a wig party haha  I was like laughing so hard I became a sweat monster. One of the girls who I always say hi o but she never says anything back is being really eciptive to me no. It's a fucking miracle. Everyone is pretty sweet I just want to hug everyone. I gotta work a full time shift tommorow and I hope I don't die. Maybe I'll be some soda and shit and down that sucka. Dalyker is remarkable less perfect. But it makes him even more endearing like he seems so nerdy and uncool like he is so precious. But the thing is I think he's sort of still cool. And he cooks oohlala. When he leaves his girlfriend I would for him to cook for me and have wicked romantic evening of horror movies and fine food. Or Taco Bell hehehe so he likes that stuff. Lol and his story about eating a box of fiber ones and being cons tipped on a plane was oddly humorous. We are one big pooping family. Everyone one of us. And we spell team with a capital t haw hi am loving the day. Also I've been thinking I should be skeeved out by the Sam but I'm actually really really into the whole spiel. We are grot. Omg I can't believe I spent 20 mins on this damn entry. Goodnight olives, I shall see dalyker tommorow and hopefully we will bond on our incredibly antisocial loser level. Sigh so perfect and awesome I want his Johnny bravo body. Shut up self I'm going delirious. Anaconda don't want none if you don't got buns Hun.

OH MY LORDD. guess whose not thinking about da past anymore!!?? me!! alright so I quizzed  dalyker and
-he lives like by me like really close, pow pow but no cigar on the fbook
-he gives and gives until it hurts, ok mb it doesnt hurt
-he went through a emotional phase
-he came back to the brkrm just to eat with me because i'm nice and charming and stuff :3
-he hates the 6 dollar foot long, hahaha me too it totes ruins all that advertising.
today: while talkin to the manager, he waved at me solemly like oops your bad, but it was utterly endering
then he looked at me again and again.... and I tried moving away to block his view so I wouldn't do my awkward face. he didn't get to bring gifts to me at the fit room which was sad, thats like my favorite part of the day 1. talk to dalyker about shit 2. smile and shit 3. smile more and shit. 4. get candy from him because thats how he rolls. 5. ask each other how are day is going like 4 times min lol like how many times can you do this? i don't care I love every moment he talks to me/ waves at me, looks solemn at me. i think i am liking volume 3 of she and him... uuurrr and I want to marry teh sam.... welll thats not new news.

hahaha m ward looks kind of like gerritt. oh god. I have a crush on all the futuros its pretty great, all of them are fab. thnx fer reading fer is a word now how nice. bye hopefully i'll see the dalyker tommorow and we can hit up the town. or the local fast food joint. ehehehehehehehehe goodnight!!

Who reads this blog??

I donno 8000 people? Omg I can't believe what a day with dalyker can do. Omfuckinggod I said I would become a new woman if I met the futuros but after spending 20 mins with dalyker my day got brilliantly brighter and more vivid. I was sooo ecstatic I got to give you the lowdown on him in case it helps with my internet search on him. Ha. He likes old man baseball jackets. He thinks the Sesame Street fighter tee shirt is the coolest thing ever. He actually liked our robotic manager.  His girlfriend loves justin briber and he doesn't understand. I said there must be something that is annoying to ur Griffey and he remarks on something else he's annoyed at, I smell big trouble in little china.he thinks that the last stand or whatever was good but forced. He likes emotional movies tho ohohoho shitis he emo or athletic or both and he adores horror movies they make him laugh, which is adorable in his case because he the cutest thing ever. Yeah sooooooo still "waiting on" him to get with me because urosit's obvious something is fucking there lol that almost made it into caps. Soo I also detoxes from futuros and then l8er went on a binge... I guess for the most part I'm doing better. Getting over the past . Yeah dalyker pretty much saved my life today, he is sooo fucking joyly like  he could fucking be santa clause lol wow and at work he bears gifts one last thing he was like I'm like magic they call me kid lightning lol lol omg I died then I was like that sounds like a rapper name then he said his rap name is like p town or p money something along those lines, not limes. So perfect... Other than using the word bitch and being into that's what she said he is a perfect peach. And when he looks at me he gets a real good look, omg me too obvs that's my goal I need to remember every detail about him and replay over and over. Sigh :3 dream boat status. And Haley remarked she has no friends, god that's such a fucking lie. We'll if it's true then we are about the same banana boat. Goodnight!

sooooo

I have: had my heart broken by a young marlon brando.
couldn't listen to music by bands that i've loved for a long time because I felt regrets/anger tied to them

but I have: gotten over over situations where my idol was in the midst and I couldn't say anything out of my parched mouth.

stress is okay, life has hurdles, you can't just be like dude i'm  perfect all the time.

"just be okay?"
"okay"

heres some grumps

so this was helpful in my journey to forgiveness.

never had I: given up on fall out boy's lyrics they still rule and raise the spirit and holy soul.

you analyze it, obsess over it and talk ad nauseam about it with your friends. You continue to gather more information and knowledge. Then you take all this awareness and information that you have NOW, and beat yourself up because you did not know it THEN. It is totally unfair and unreasonable to take what you know now and use it to beat yourself up for what you didn’t know then.

Please take this in: You really truly did the best you could at the time! Trust me. And until you really take in this truth, you will stay stuck in regret.

do something: I wrote a compelling note to him privately.

consider poorer outcomes: I didn't get to meet teh sam, I didn't say anything and left immediately, I didn't say thank you (haha)

look for benefits: I can practice what I've learned from this occuroance. plan what i'm going to say, breathe

learn from past: hinking about a past mistake in the right way -- how it happened, how it felt, how you know it would affect you if it happened again -- can reduce your chances of repeating it

the golden rule: Something that I often do when initially regretting a decision, is say “Well, if I HAD (chosen the winning lotto numbers/invested in Lululemon/worn sunscreen/etc.), I would have subsequently…been hit by a bus.” 

I’m currently feeling (emotion) when I think about (event/decision/behaviour). At the time, doing that made sense to me because ______, but now that I have more information, it could have been more helpful to ______. Of course, I couldn’t have predicted this at the time, so this will be helpful in the future for me and the people with whom I feel safe sharing it if I encounter a similar situation.”

oh soooooo the futoros are gonna be around the us for the awhile

oops my bad

the way you broke my heart, i need it back now. lol next times the charm eh? just like psychonaut I will wait it out. Next time I will charm teh sam.... well off to the showers. tata

hoowah

so here I am with sam's body emotions.... just chilling trying to fill out college apps and failing!! omg why are they making me fill out another form?? this is nuts. soooooooooo I wrote this tre embarrassing thing about teh sam about getting to see him perform and meet me, well guess the fuck what? I did end of seeing him live and meeting him, hahaha as the kipster would say " HOLY FUCK, I MET THEM????" So yeah, it probably was good that I didn't know what they sounded like first, or else I would have been too awkward or starstruck. They rule." yeah that basically happened he like was all my name's sam and I was like duuuurrrr hehehehehehehehe, next time we meet ( as predicted by a random magic 8 ball) I will totally talk to him for atleast 5 mins and he will remember me and I will give him a contact card and he may or may not call me, but its better than being like hurdurdur you soooo pretty i'm just gonna go stare you and shit. this is important I actually lost sleep because of this.... wow the sad life of me eh? 
my sad body face

you there!! I choose you Pikachu... "me?" yes you "teheheeee :3" "ohgodohgod" next time i'll asked for a dance pose photo, ah yeah!....

um I really wanted to post a pic of sam crowd surfing, so can I be like i'm out!!! peacefully... but I guess the author was likin it so here is me dancing away... sashay away.....

ovwai my lil french macaroons 

WOAH

SO THE FUTUROS WERE SOOOOOO SOOOOOO GOOD I'M LIKE OVERJOYED, HA AND THE BAND WAS PRETTY DEAD EXCEPT FOR THE DRUMMER GO YOU DRUMMER COCO. I SAID THANKS TO WILL AND HE WAS LIKE YOU'RE WELCOME SEE YOU NEXT TIME AWWWWWWW AND THEN I MET SAM LIKE OUTSIDE THE DOOR OMFG I WAS SOOOO OVERJOYED I WAS OMG OMG I HOPE HE DIDN'T HEAR ME, I WAS CACKLING AND BEING JOVIAL HAHAHAHAHAHAHA AND THEN LIKE WHEN HE MET ME HE WAS LIKE MY NAME IS SAM THEN I WAS :3 OMG I KNOW DUDE I KNOW. THEN HE WAS LIKE I SAW YOU ROCKIN OUT IN THE FRONT OF THE CROWD HEHEHEHEHEHE OMG OMG THEN I WAS LIKE CAN I HAVE PITCURE PLEASE AND HE WAS YEAH AND THEN HE LIKE IS THE CAMERA EVEN ON I WAS OH NOES JAYSON GET IT TOGETHER HERE IS MY MAIN MAN YOU CAN DO IT TO US, BUT HIS SMILE WAS EVERLASTING AND MAYBE A LITTLE FAKE BUT OMG IT IS SOOOOOOOO CUTE I'M TELLING EVERYWAN HES MY BOYFRIEND HAHAHAHAHA NO. BUT YES. THEN HE I SAID THANK YOU AND I THINK HE SAID THANK YOU AND THEN I DIED AND LEFT AND HE PUT IS HAND ON MY BACK OMG I WAS DYING HE WAS SOOOOOOOO GOODLOOKING AND OMG DREAMY AS I WOULD HAVE PICTURED HIM OMG STILL DEAD. SENPAI NOTICES ME!!! OH GOD I'M GOING TO COME TO WORK TOTES LOVE STONED AND TIRED I MIGHT EVEN THROW UP YAY....

so guessed who worked with me again at closing???

it was dalyker. omg he gets more attractive every time I fucking see him. fuck. also I worked a register today hahahaha and it was okay... wow i actually paid someone money..... omg lol I don't think I was supposed to do that. ok dalyker part cuz we aint here for the other shit. he was like yay when he heard I was being trained lol I almosted put tained lol no not here for being tained only wanna be tained by you. ok then he was like I got ur back gurl and was lyke omg omg ehehehehehehe thats one step from being hey gurl hay. and he misses that i'm not working on the day he was working.... ehehehehehe. after that I didn't talk to him much. hes gonna be in costume then not in costume at work and he was eagerly eating his nasty fritos uggh, and his old ass ice tea. goddamn now I still know his locker. fuck you are you srsly trying to make me steal from you and hang it in my shrine to you... which I have not decided to make because uhhh thats wierd and I'm not commited to him yet.... lol he is sooooo broworthy and talks in like the cutest sk8er boi accent I was singing that song when I went to the women's room omg hahaha goddamn where is his fbook god please find me a mutual friend in oldie. please so I can get dalyker's fbook and stalk him forever and ever and ever amen. and whenever he gives me clothing he likes to chat with me a bit and then he gets called over from the mgmt ehehehehehe

literally my face everytime I see him, I literally have to not look at him because I make the dumbest faces when I see him/ hear him/ near him.... he prob knows I like him so he makes things go longer with me a bit like srsly if his g/f was not in the pic I would be there like woah. 

me popping out of box of donations at work....... suprise  I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER PLEASE DON'T LEAVE WORK YOU SO PRETTY AND CHARMING AND OMG WHY DO YOU GIVE ME SO MUCH ATTENTION I HATE YOU. OH GOD I'M HOPELESS. ITS LIKE JOEL "WHY DO I FALL IN LOVE WITH EVERY GIRL WHO GIVES ME ATTENTION?" well actually I don't they have to be my type. he is sort of my type you know sk8erboi and nerdy + he is a sweetheart and a team player and he is soooooo lovely to everyone.... lol atleast to their faces..... kekz yeah I really need to go to sleep. so I don't think he'll be at work tommorow sooooooooooooo I'm going to be more diligent and shit. like srsly at a point where I didn't see his fine ass he has no ass he needs does ass underwear pads.... lol yeah anyways basically when I didn't see him I wanted to get my ass back home and like veg out or sleep. oh yeah when we were cleaning up and I passed by him temporary he like "I found legs" leg stool, wierd but it was kind of cool. this entry is a fucking massive essay. I just can't with him. I want to talk about him lots and lots i'm becoming sullen. I dont know what that means so I think I should be heading to bed. I LOVE YOU ALL ESPECIALLY DALYKER NOT THE MONIKER BUT THE SYNONYM WUT THE HELL AM I TALKING ABOUT. "i don't want to see this girly movie with the girlfriend do I smell trouble in paradise or is it just what the rock is cooking? I'm sorry its bad joke time.

Ugggh

Honey b in and a cast of local characters don't have dalyker as their friend. Maybe he has no friends maybe his girlfriend is a plant or a laptop... Lol here's hoping he's a sad being, or a lying being and we can get together because we are both awesome. I hate that attractive racists are being turned the other cheek I wish I could delete him buuuuuut he is soo interesting fuck. I reeally hope dalyker shows up somewhere  yeah I really got to sleep... Or watch a game goodnight!

Yeah

So long story short, the guy I like ( he gives me mucho attention @ work) how obvious. Has a fucking girlfriend what the fuck?! Why does every guy I like have to do this to me. It killed me like literally I was ready to die right in that break room. God and I was ass to him now when he remembers me me he'll be that's old ass face right there don't talk to her she is kind of assy person. Harm I would want to see a rom with him we'd prob make out and I'll be great but prob his girl is a great and tons of fun and he gives her nice things and tells her funny jokes and gets hyped on candy and talks on the phone in the middle of the night. So I attempted to find him on ok ffbookok oh he'll no it was not happening he is like srsly secretive, I did find oldie pants hahahhaha and he is like on selfie mode all the time. I really think they are friends so first thing tommorow is I'm ad dining him and I am gonna find what should I name my new obsession? Oh geeze he likes candy a lot and he s skateboards. He likes hip hop, uhhh hates roms, likes the moolah, likes making dirty jokes, likes being a chill dude, I think he also likes jack Johnson. Hmm soooo ok maybe dalyker omg lol what he generally likes everyone fingers crossed he doesn't want to throw me in a pit of fire  geeze I am way to hard on myself. He prob forgot all about it. And a ain't nothing but a chicken  wing on a string.  I can't stop thinking where should I look? Have I exhausted all searches? I'm getting tired so goodnight I hope I see him at work tommorow even though instill feel terrible and when I get get the chance I will ask him where he lives and he's social media will be mine!! Unless he is super secret like me and has he's location a hour away that's like totes not cool but I feel that's the case so far. Uhh for some reason I can't seem to get over psychonaut, he's racist but everything else about him is super appealing I'm even letting the vine madness slip. Dear gods above please help me find dalyker it kind of sounds like a lesbian slang word... Lol he kind of does look like a lesbian if a girl were to look like that. He is so fucking hot too me it's like when I found the girlfriend news my obsession took a turn for the worst dammit. Ok I really Need to get back to Layton and wright game so I bid u adio!

hohum

okay sooooooo racist things happened on psychonauts site and omg is he srs he agrees with people murdering people just because they look or certain way or practice a religion. yeah the crazy psychpath is in him. ok now the name fits, he may not be into voodoo but goddamn he is a racist. turdbag. also my job is going good so far, its a lot of physical work but i'm really liking the people in general. also there is a cutie who works there and I can't seem to place his name, but he has a habit of talking to me when he sees me, so i'm all :3 cutied out aww. so far he doesn't look to be of bad character I can't believe I liked a racist. he is kind of cute when I don't think about what he said. alright work is in a few hours so i'm gonna get ready. hmm hopefully today doesn't kill me. lol

ummmm

ok so I've got a new job! yay so far 1-2 people are not supes friendly but thats ok they are not unbearable. and in other news psychonaut is a dreamboat when he puts the effort.  He is looking real fine, right nows. uggh there was this desperate guy who reminded me of me when I didn't have friends omg I'm sorry but me no likey. He seems suspect for some reason. eh hes nice now, but not that nice I was testing him, at least he wasn't all smiles and giggles when we talked about mr chatter box. ok points for me minus points for creeping on a girl, dood she has a b/f but he can barely keep up with what people says. lol everyone thinks I'm going out with jayson the first time we meet, lol my god no we are just really wierd compatible friends god damn. drooooools psychonaut is sooooooo hot. but he can be real creep, I wonder if stopped ranting about stupid azz viners. srsly please stop, its not making you look cute or more awesome, it makes you look really sad. so far he made it into good territory talking about shit bands. well... going to sleep or watch some layton

omfg omfg I've got future island tickets bitches

all the futuro belongs to us. and speghetti monster said you shall have your sam herring and eat it too. or whatever. oh god oh god what shall I wear. I went for psychonaut sadness, to futuroness happiness. oh yeah jayson and I hung out and it was da bomb da bomb I say!! he is an angel in disguise. I love thy. lol he is a nut job in the best way possible. way better than psychonaut almost said his real name again... I kind of want to see what his vine is doing. prob shitting on stupid vine players. egad not again. but I sort of miss him. I am not to ask him to hang out anymore. it is on him now. I hope we are still friends, but if he doesn't like me because i'm a tad desperate in the right ways and cute to boot than he doesn't deserve this fine person. i've got all the friends I need, cough jayson and my dad, and my mom, and the aspiring people, they are most awesome... I will never doubt them again. also kevin... kevin needs to hang out with me pronto and maybe when he gets a job I will cuddle fight him. hahahahahaha what? I know really? yessssss! and we'll Roanoke to the break of dawn fuck yeah america. psychonaut some how looks put together and popular at bbqs how the fuck does he do it? he hides away the fact that he is a scared shitless and gutless person who terrorizes and trolls all fucking day because he has no fucking friends besides his shitey girlfriend who has a open relationship with another person. yeah I am doing a lot better in the relationships department. also tried cream because I know psychonaut and me won't be hanging out this week because he needs to be coaxed and he needs to know that the people he goes out with are not the spitting images himself the sad lonely people that have no business in the normal world. I can't believe I compared him to that guy from HIMYM yeah totally not. doesn't even have a cobie smulders. I am totes excited for futoroislandos. omg I can't really sleep but I must. late yalls bitches be hatin but they can never touch!!
as you can see I had a good fucking night. :D psychonaut smiled at me how can he not like me this fast it must be the inner crazy

alas the sadness comes back

I think its officially time for me to move on past this psychonaut relationship, like he is totally ruining my chill vibes, I have all these emotions. Its like I've watched eternal sunshine too many times to count and then drowned myself with morrissey and mychem. he said maybe, and my heart was crushed. prob doing something with his lady friend. I think I need to go to makedamnsure + the kipster. I felt a lil better trolling kai. omg senses flail is going to do a tour based on their second album hopefully playing bloody romance. because that is my shiz. oh psychonaut the things I think of when I think of you. maybe I need to debate again, something hawt and fizzy. I have officially made it into depression zone. I neeeed jayson, I'm gonna watch a comedy with him and its gonna be a fucking blast. fuck the haters. I know that psychonaut doesn't hate me, its just that day is prob "date day" on account of he has to spend 2 hrs on the subway to see her silly ass. dats a lot of commitment. I guess if someone I really liked, liked me back it could go back and forth like that and maybe skyping def. uggh I need his tumblr, its way less obnoxious than his vine. he is srsly creepy on vine, I get it you hate that guy and his friends... no need to spend 10 videos posing with garbage cans and shit. I think i'm gonna go listen to some ftf and dance around, like a don't have a care in the world. Do I really need someone who is depressed and feels ugly all the goddamn time? like really? I had to deal with that after high school, but I am pretty much over that. maybe I can hang out with cameron hahahaha yeah............ or that guy who plays shitty games at meetups. friends friends friends I fucking need more friends. well off to the see the wizard and get my owl wholl deliever my shitey mail.

heres some knuckle puck for you shortest song ever... the girls in the back going 'wtf are you doing???'

wow that actually made me feel, power of music!!!

hehehehe

soooooo I talked to psychonaut again I feel like changing his name to something like soft and cuddly... hrmmm anyways we may be hanging out again. It took him way too long to respond to me... uggh he is sooooo great anyway. god I feel all ehed out . this morning I felt really hot and shit, so I went out to get me some good food, and sausage because i've been good on my diet. I wonder if psychonaut thinks of all that and a bag of chips... he did say he was gonna remove the underlings who cause shit. maybe cuz he met me and was like I need to have cooler friends... ooooohhh.
I just saw a nicole richie paris hilton video where some douche calls them dumb and dumber nicole goes off on their ass and says this gurl is my best friend and I will not hesitate to beat your dumb ass, you listen to me, it was great! ha brandon what the fuck do you think of that???! yeah you fucker. alright I am pleasantly pleased with all my scheming and planning for hanging out with the psychonaut. so ovwar I can't spell french so long!!

going on a diet... poof

 “garcinia cambogia” or “GCE” with at least 50% HCA (active ingredient potassium). will it work??
** update update i have lost 10 lbs cutting out starches and hot dogs yayayaya

holy shit

psychonaut said that he has a good DAY not a good night, fuck yo couch. He was absolutely lovely I just want to hold him and put on display for everyone to see. kekz. he said he didn't come to any nerdom bbqs because he has been lazy, lazy in his case he doesn't want to meet anyone new. OMG I CAME JUST IN TIME TO MEET HIM AND WE HUNG OUT, AMERICA FUCK YEAH.  all is well in the world, because i'll time lines crossed paths. pray to the great strainer of the spaghetti monster.

AHHHHH SHITTTTTT

I DID IT I FUCKING LOVING MOTHER DID IT. PSYCHONAUT AND I ARE GOING TO HANG OUT!! FUCK YEAH... GETTING HIS DIGITALS AS WE FUCKING SPEAK. AH SHITT YEAH BITCHES, BOW DOWN. his girlfriend might show up. and it will be a pitter patter party. and then he left. dun dun dun. maybe his internet sucks balls. huge dangly balls.OK HES BACK, AND THE NUMEROS ARE ALL MINE. SHIT YEAH. LOOKING FOR NUB IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES LOOKIN FOR NUB. HOLYFUCK IT ONLY TOOK ME A YEAR AND HALF TO GET THE COURAGE TO ASK HIM TO HANG OUT. AND ALAD HE DID LOL..... DON'T FUCKING SLIP UP. GONNA LOOK HELLA KAWAII. or not.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OMG I'M GOING CRAZY STIR NUTS. PRAY FOR ME SPAGHETTI MONSTER. PLEASE DON'T NOT SHOW. I KNOW HE'LL BE THERE THO RIGHT? goodnight my babies. MY ONE TRUE DREAM HATH COME TRUE I'D LIKE TO THANK THE ACADEMY OF THERAPISTS THAT TOLD ME TO TAKE A FUCKING RISK AND DAMN IT PAID OFF.  i told you he was desperate. hehehehhehe not. ITS A FRIENDSHIP MADE IN FRISKIES.

toodles

hello! today I went shashashopping!! and it was greatastic. spent like 3hrs thrifting like crazy. I got so much stuff. ready for a date night hehehehe. haven't called jesse yet, but maybe tommorow. gonna she my work counselor tommorow and then change my meds maybe. I feel svelte again. A few clothes didn't fit me but I was for the most part great. afterwards I went to get some groceries thats a hard word to spell, and now I won't starve for probably 2 weeks. i'm eating healthier and using my mind during this summer. I may wake up late, but I'm feeling pretty pumper most of the time. yay. later!

life recap

I have been in a sorry state of relationships. and fuck I will not stand for it, starting now. I get I want now. So far things that have made me a happy clam are futuro islandos, snarking on people. hanging out with jason the uber coolest person around, like srsly he is super great, we like the same things, and he doesn't give me crap for liking crap. unlike a certain person around me today. never miss a aspiring meeting. never ever, unless its a bad restaurant. and dennis became a weightlifter who would have fucking guessed. went from food contest eater to that. have I talked about anyone else. this has more views than my other blog, how fucking strange is that. yeah gonna go eat now... fuck the haters. fuck em in the ass. nobody shitty and over snarky are allowed in my realm.
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