who feels like crap

i do, and my comp is feeling the burn. i've decided to delete my favorite browser in order to get things back to shape. hopefully it works. i feel way anxious again, my mother says i'll be fine in due time. i wish i had more friends i could cry to. i feel defeated again, i was doing so well too, i dont know why i suddenly feel like things are crumbling and i'm not safe and sound. maybe its the dark weather and the rain. im on some anxiety meds and hopefully that helps soothe my inner demons. im trying to get shehim back on poddy but my right clicker is in cahoots recently. yeah... some days are dark, darker then most. i feel like someone tipped me over and i'm hanging on a ledge of emotions. jayson i wished we were even closer, i've told you things that i haven't told anyone. that makes me feel closer to you. i wish there was a get better fast card, but oh ive been feeling is depression and loss of control of anxiety. i can fake it, but i donno. i think if i continue to take the pills i'll be fine. just i see. :) smiles everywhere. i'm go get a good nights sleep too. love you! and cheers.