WHY!? do I feel so down.

fuck. I appear to look uninterested in people again and its costing me friends, also being overly complimenting is a tad creepster status. That was only a few bits weird when I said to flo that I wish I knew how to play music, god I really do want to know! I'm good at stuffz too. Noone on the bus or cafeteria said bye to me or initiated convos. I'm fucking destined to be alone for atleast this time. not even alfonzo is feeling like me, he has all the people that he possibly needs around him. maybe or maybe not. I am not ready yet to get back to bacs. Maybe I should call stephanie and say sorry to her. Yeah that was a bitch move I made that day but it was fully justified. that jake character is already in love with some floozy chick, yeah I said it she is a total skank. She has no body and she talks like a pre my fair lady, oh yeah so attractive. I fucking hate her. Only to the a certain degree, I guess shes nice thats a redeeming quality. oh and sarah goddamn wtf the fuck is wrong with people, she is dumb and is totally judgemental... I guess thats great in people's eyes I can tell who she is, its not a secret but people overlook that, and guess what she has a boyfriend again!! I wished someone was there for me like right now! grrr I am sounding really desperate but seriously I guess its not all too bad, time to talk to nico and victor sum mores, we are in the same boat. thank god for them.