Maaaan

Shit got real srs on Thursday. Like I was down in the deepest dumps that I've been in since like yesteryear. It was truly a heinous experience. Sometimes I like to wallow around in my depression. That was not one of them ok maybe I allowed myself for a couple of minutes. Thinking of the angel Mariah basically saved my life. I made a lil skit or three and it was the most inspiring heartwarming thing that can come out of misery. Today or at least as much as I can I vowed to be social and let myself know I am loved and I am great how I am, I just am not great at something's I shouldn't push myself to be great at something I'm not it's just a backwards paradox I don't want to prescribe to. Today played games with the greatest people ever and they are local hell ya! I think I have another truly special guy militant, who never fails to make me feel special, noticed, laugh, and not feel like a massive sad tar dish clown being. And he can speak French omg, like please yes. He's hellllllla old but he is so massively attractive maybe cause he's mostly making me feel attractive so all around attractiveness is at its peak. Siiiigh. Mariah and milatant sitting on a tree, not fighting and feeding me grapes and telling me I'm awesome sauce and I'm adorable and hot and intelligent and charming and witty. And jay sons family I don't who said that I match wits with them. Eeeeeeeee! I was so happy to hear that! Uhg hopefully they still think I'm his BFF cuz I don't want to be da next level or shit. Mmmmmmmm milatant so witty so charming such a nice smile prob can carry me for a short distance and be oh me lady hear doth your chamber room, have doth a bittersweet night and I left chocolates on ur pillow and a some lavender for extra measure me lady. Oh god. Would me lady like to frolic with me in the fields of Lilly's and daisys, afterwards we can drink Capri sun under the moon and have finger sandwiches and sneak into a car theater me lady? Oh my god. I would be like sign me up for that princely train service express doth lady needs some loving. I'm such a fucking attention whore give all the attention to me I need it all. Please. Haha. Watch Colin firth films and snack he is surely a snacker. Maybe we are all lonely, we all need copious amounts of attention. I want to thank everyone who came out and said and played games even sneezy stinky pants McGee who I may have gotten sick from. I'm deeply pleased, please more. Until i pass the fuck out. Yep thank you it was great again.