Ah man

My buddy Travis is apparently gay... And my anxiety is totally out of Carl like I can't think of anything about the negs or I go bananas stir crazy. Back to travel he has only a couple  of friends and that makes me sooo happy, like he is like me yay. Watched magic in moonlight and that lightened my bad horrible no good anxious thoughts thnx Colin firth my English princes just gotta occupyy my mind with as much happy making heavy distracting things as possible. Like non stop baby. I'm sure that will do the trick and layoff mind over mood book. That is super negatory in the life of happiness.jayson was bein supes gracious for me being so antsy it was nice, I wish I could go on this huge spiel about my worries and then laugh about it,but I don't think we can go there yet. Sometimes I wish I told ready iwas hella depressed, I just thought he would fucking drop me like a sack of potatoes. All day I felt like crying, or stabbing a imaginary being and them losing there life force. Yeah.... Super violent in thinking. When I first had my taste of disappointment I had these anxious thoughts, I don't know if they were purely anxiety. I just now it took hella months and a little bit of crying to get the fuck out of there. I hugged all the aspires and Jim gave like the best hug ever, big warm bear hug maybe that's why Janet is still together with him...I need to sleep but I also need to put my thoughts down or I'llnot be feeling very good when sleeping sondre is almost wreaking its force of music but I still havehope. Ugggg just want to get well faster. GTFO out of my funk and go to school and be alive, pat lived close to school sooo it must have not been to bad. My nerves are killing my chill mode of being. Yeah I also feel like sleeping forever and not waking up. Or have a vacation of me not doing work for a week. Maybe I should just quit. Bye Travvy bye cannoli and my most fave bye big booty you were close yet so far, we'll always be together in dreams. Ok now I feel better cuz the mention of big booty srsly he's like a miracle drug. No I'm not waking up this sat u know why? I'm quitting in a week so it won't even fucking matter anymore, it's just two fucking goddamn hours. Rant down smiles achieved. Now for oatmeal and some mouth rinsing. Hope the love bug bites you all y'all are special elves. Hehehehe