So

I saw mike for the first time in months, he was wearing glasses and looking super intelligent also he didn't change in looks too much. omg his huge butt is still giant and I wish I became better friends with him instead of acting like a fucking floozie. I'm sorry I was a beginner, mb if I unblock him he'll find me and we'll become better friends omg. can't believe i'm saying this, shit he fucked me up good back in the day so mb thats still not a good idea. also dis song was playing when I saw him. It was like it was meant to be. today I dreamt more like daydreamed that I saw honey b at school mb I said hi to him, but I didn't really give a rats ass about him anymore, I think i'm sort of over him... wow this is huge I'm pretty serious this time, but I still want him as a f friend. I also thought of stephn and omg I like had the most splendid wondrous dream of being his neighbor or karate buddy and thinking i seriously need to know what he is doing because he is super fine. also I thought is he a total douchebag though. Naw he is also pretty attractive in the mainstream sence also I'm beginning to admire skinny people mellisa millionare srsly she is so hot and patrick my stu I miss you but you super attractive now and that makes your brand even more delicious. I feel like I should be rebelling against these feelings but I guess I'm super vain or only like certain types of people and also having a total complex where I hate myself aswell. I think makedamnsure had or maybe does have that problem. when I have a fucking job I am fucking moving to the suburbs of new york and I fucking going to having the fucking hot best friend who I will have fucking awesome parties with and we'll go fashion thrifting together. we'll tell each other everything, and guys will be fawning over me because my confidence will be exploding off the fucking wall.
heres a picture of melissa to aim for: I want to be thrashy but classy at the same time

god its so hard, I want to party with kesha and get mad crunk, I want people to say I'm hot and ask advice on how they can be like me. I want to model. I want to do weddings. I want to be a bridesmaid I want the life that was meant for me. I want greatness. fuck melissa I want to be st vincent, even if I don't know what the fuck she does and who she is at a person but fuck shes fucking hot