Monday, May 30, 2011

LALA

OMG CHRIS IS TOTES WEARING A MATCHBOOK ROMANCE HOODIE IN THE HEARTBREAK VIDEO OMGZ LYKE I'M TOTALLY FREAKING OUT. IT WAS THE NEW ALBUM HOODIE THOUGH SO EWWISH. BUT OMG I SHOULD TELL ONE OF THE MEMBERS THEY MIGHT FREAK TOO. NAW THEY'LL BE LIKE WTH IS THIS SHITTAKE MUSHROOM. LOL KEKZ

Sunday, May 29, 2011

I See

I think manbearpig would appreciate this work of art

I think I really want to ask him another question. a brillant hipster question that he will write extra for, and make me twice as happy. and spit in the eye like the alpaca.
ok mb thats not true. its still funny. oh my new new people omg so scary geezus was like having a heaving and heart attack symptoms, but I think I made a ok impression, also the old peeps didn't show up or they left early and I was like oh shit this is serious. that whole harrison bergeon story was totes about being able to be beautiful and truthful so of course it could be, what would come of it if beautiful had to sheild their faces? actually I would sort of like that. I am going to continue to pretend I'm writing to my love. "yes it is hard to talk to people, actually a lot of my friends I met during religious ceremonies and through family members and we stick around together, i'm lucky in that way... ya but the being in a band helps alot. thanks for calling me hot, I know i am I got it from my mama, haha... j/k I don't get that very often, I usually only get compliments from old spinsters and widows not that is not special but its nice to hear it from the youth/ younger folk. wow I really wrote alot. thanks again smiley." omg omg I wish.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Pain of the day

woop woop
stupid crap video that starts when I turn on this page
if you want to see it you have to upload it with this link
for I am scorned as of late.
hnnnng gaga was greatttt on AI tonight

Tuesday, May 24, 2011



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stupid bitches hootching on kippys precious nose. I am hating cuz he ain't liking yalls footballing unless it has to do with the packers because he can get with that.... omg did yall love my last post it was eventful and placidly happy. I love me some scene/ faux hipster boys who appear giddy as a school girl when drinking alcoholic beverages.
its over.
lol I loved that guy, why did he have to delete his xanga!!? mussara come back to mee!!
the gathering floozies afford to be choosy
but actually I am above the floozies thats why he answers my questions on time when he sees them :):gushes: huradurdur and a derp to you.

you don't know about my obession

with the pains, fucking insane as a bag of nuts. nom nom recognized in a gay bar, please don't be gay, I love you!!! omgz you are sew hawt!! lyke omg you make me touch your hands for stupid reasons, my little brother hates u and always blocks your seat haaaa! wow completely went off in my lil world.

lol chris... for real a real bastert. X-D

Sunday, May 22, 2011

wow

as of today i'm slightly over the kipster. thank goodness. also I seem to want to do something different with a part of my life, I just don't know yet. nom nom this frutti de pasta is wonderfly delicious. just saw strict ballroom at it was absolutely adorable and awesome, but it will never beat moulin rouge the cinetography on that movie is top notch and even more splendorous than ever could imagine. got my pains on my ipod barely can see the whole band mostly of wendy... or was it someone else. why get a tumblr when I could just look at it without getting one. found out or maybe suspection the kippy is a jewmeister. self proclaimed I had no inclination of him ever saying that in interviews. psshh. well off to sleep my friends
here are some pretty pictures.


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Thursday, May 19, 2011

Letter to self

Dear pigmanbear, it appears to me that you are awkward and very wierd or come off as strange. how did you make friends? Do you even have that many friends? what qualities or markings show you that it is true a friendship and not just stupid bullshit frenemy crap? also I think if you weren't in a slightly famous band, I think you would have any friends at all. am I mean? I don't consider myself mean I think I speak the truth that you are pretty much a terrible human bean. ok scratch that you are lovable and awesome just ragging on you because I am secretly a jealous person who bites heads quickly without a thought, just wanted to know if you like to be friends, heres my number call me when you are feeling sensitive and lonely i'll be there. oh fuck this is so long and stalkerish, but heres my email address it doubles as aim so feel free to to im me at any time because I know you go on the internet alot. for fucks sake this is really wierd I didn't mean to projectile word vomit all over the place, I think your really hawt indie person too. oh god too much? I should send this in to the letters from hell or whatever book. thanks for reading don't forget to im me or text me. i'm watching you. lol nope j/k but for real look out your window. oh you say you don't have a window well I just made a real dent on the side of your building, do you see me now? haha... D-: this is terrible dribble but wanted to get this off my chest. thanks. one more thing I think i've fallen for your jewish good loox. I would eat cheese off that nose. or coke for that matter kekz.

BABY BABY OOOOH THOUGHT WERE ALWAYS GONNA BE MINE
also this video is what I feel about you.

thnx for you time, I appreciate it you foxy foxy dude.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

bomb then bamb show that to your mother

woop woop the pain member has added me!!! dancing around like Macaulay omg omg yes!! please stay on my friends list please!! so excited

now a break with our own local emo band

WOMP have a pic of andrew jordan for this high

The cold concrete cuts against her back
And her spirit spills with blood onto the pavement
Hands tied so tight behind her neck
And a silence falls, and everything changes
Everything dies, to you nothing’s alive, to you anymore
I guess you've gotten more than you may have wanted

If I could take your pain away
I would scream for you
And I'd bleed for you
So you’ll never feel this way again
When you’re in my arms, again
I would scream for you
I will bleed for you

She drowns herself until the images erase
But the skin is bruised all along her thighs
Nightmares repeat refrain the memories of pain
The mental photographs haunting all the time
She shuts her eyes, to you she tries to hide
From you, she falls asleep into dreams where she is safe

If I could take your pain away
I would scream for you
And I'd bleed for you
So you’ll never feel this way again
When you’re in my arms, again
I would scream for you
I will bleed for you
Put the weight on my shoulders
And the pain in my heart
Tie the knots in my stomach, let it tear me apart
So I could be everything you need

Put the weight on my shoulders
And the pain in my heart
Tie the knots in my stomach, let it tear me apart
So I could be everything you need
So tear me apart...

Where the silence strips me bare,
and your body pins me down.
I've never been so scared to breathe,
afraid to make a sound.
But all I know is you'll never let me go..
Just kick and scream, bite and bleed,
and make believe it's all a dream.

If I could take your pain away
I would scream for you
And I'd bleed for you
So you’ll never feel this way again
When you’re in my arms, again
I would scream for you
I will bleed for you
Pain away
I would scream for you
I will bleed for you
Pain away.
I will bleed for you.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

wooooooooooooooooop

the pegster commented back, not once but twice!! yaaayyy also they enjoy being loved by 12 people but that was back in 2009. things change after touring the world huh? I added an another pain hope that person adds me back!!! also never gonna add the crispy for he may block me out of left field and I will cry for days. I decided i'm not going to ask sam why he decided to lash out towards me because I don't want to be his slippery noodle friend who he tells all his depressing stories too, sorry I want to be happy in this world. i think I did really well on this math test, and my crazy vcom teacher is retiring, I'll miss her randomness and hand gestures. but theres going to be a chinese teacher from an university whose gonna fill in for some classes!! woot woot. so I'm debating whether to go to chabot this wk or not? last wk was hella fun and I didn't want to die of happiness because of hottie instructor because he was just cool not hot, and his assistant was very cool and chill too, we learnt how to make our own garbage recycler and how to feed worm tea to growing plants and not too much for the aloe because its a desert plant. haha almost wrote dessert. omg the main dude in raising hope used to be a metal head/ goth? and he was kind of hot with the hair and that chick he secretly loves LOVED him at that moment in time, I was like whhhaat? she was all, I hope he kills me and burys me in a grave of roses... um girl please you can do better than gypsies!! lol. look at me now world I am shining bright and you can't put this fire out just yet. not even makedamnsure can she is but a flake in the dandruff pile. you betta believe it, i felt really good talking about her to the pdoc, and suprinsingly I didn't feel like a major creep, after all her son lurks. lol
have a pretty huge pic

my religion is painism fur real

Sunday, May 15, 2011

soooooo

I've come to the conclusion that makedamnsure is a normal breathing human bean that gets fat and spends time with ugly people. but ugly people that are her family. those lucky bastards... oh god just played an game with the worst stalker imaginable I was like I'm glad i'm not as sad and psycho as that bitch who was man. are men prone to being fiercer stalkers? i donno I think it could go both ways. also her bff is making me think twice about her perfectness, like her friend is still looks like shes in high school, damn I wish I still looked the same way, but I'm actually an more self actualized person when I look at myself in the mirror which happens quite often. I think if i'm going on the makeup route I'm going to pencil in my eyebrows, but not so much as a chola effect but as a makedamnsure effect. I know she is going to reject if I add her on fbook.... sigh what can I do to make myself hot and unknown but also still well known like popular in a community? I want to move so far away from here and live in my fantasy and get a avon stylist to make me over and I want to change my name and forget my stupid retched life as a dowager ragamuffin. fuck but I do obvs love myself that i'm living my dreams within my confines of my spacious mind. I want to be hot in my own my mind, I want to fierce and want to rule a group of people and want people to envy me I want success, i never want people think to i'm lonely I want constant positive attention, I want to be your star. your shinning star uhhher yeah. lol even ezra dreams of being a hot rich guy, I wonder how much he sings is what he means, I wonder if its just a mere illusion, maybe makedamnsure is a total illusion made into this world for people to gawk at and be envious of. eh its only a few random dudes after all, dudes= sad pitiful people at times.
I want to have emma roberts life


with the courage of a dog trapped underneath an bucket

Saturday, May 14, 2011

like baby baby oh.


lol this goes along with the kippy interview thats also going on. he is soooooo fine in the right setting, the other time in the park, I couldn't focus on him all I can see was the people walking around in the back and fucking skaterboarders. lol at me trying to make a conversation last longer on fbook. well a girl can try? atleast makedamnsure has done it I believe. goodnight!

ooooh boy shock me like a electric eel

kippy hath finally awakened from his busy slumber haha slumber with an remark to my question, I tried to make my reply as descriptive as possible so he may be enticed to reply back again, oh geeze, well I'm not really obsessed with him anymore as chris because he is more animated online as he goes on his music stream alot more and I can listen or atleast read what hes been listening to. saw the illusionist today it was so beautiful and a little sad. my mother has been charmed by patrick she found a connection lol. well well well. oh when manbearpig answered I was so fucking off the hook with happiness I even had mgmt stuck in my head, I think i'm terribly in woe with him. bah but I like it better than gerard atleast I think its healthier.
back to cooking fish byez!

Friday, May 13, 2011

womp womp

kippy has noth answered my dire question, he must be doing stuff. also he may be hipster as shitake. also he is being spamed like no other brother.should I add the chris? so far he hasn't been adding people... kekz he likes king of the hill!! bobbyy! thats not your bag, I don't know you. the hedgehog died... so sad, i wonder if he cried. i bet his emo ass did. I'm soooooo bored!! maybe i should go to my other journal and check whats up with the the latest trash. l8er sk8er's and g8er's. why is society so judgemental, that fat balding guy from dr phil wasn't ugly and he was a bit charming and he def loves his body, I am so happy for him... he was redicoulously old though lol spell check was going to put adulturous well he sort of did that with his russians female brides. I'm going to pretend to be friends with mr chris cuz thats what I do. mmm we are such grrrreat friends, we both love the internet and king of the hill mwahaha and taking stupid pictures. woop gosh this is starting to sound sad. well its not its fucking glorious. also i've been going out with tropical thunderstorm. keke he also likes food, I think he has a eating disorder. or he could just be really active and not that much, and organic stuff.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

oh good i'm glad they're not married

How parculiar of me to think about kin like that. its a new relationship at the moment so i ain't mad and I actually now the chick, shes cool. kippy hasn't responded to my obnoxious stalking... social networking. it is making me anxious, I wanna know your secrets boi. I couldn't go to sleep last night because I slept for 2 hours more it was seriously gay. I will only nap for an hr today.
keks for the love

Clap if you’ve got a ticket to the end of the world

It was his last day on the force

He was going through divorce

He was a living breathing action screenplay cliche

They said that they found it in the basement

Enough to just blow that roof to the pavement

And he was the man for the job,

A one-man bomb squad

A middle aged mess thinking:

(chorus)

“I feel like I’m gonna explode

Any moment

I’m ready to blow

I can’t stand it, I get so worried

I get so low

But if I’m never your hero I can never let you down”

And the sirens go “Oh ah oh ah”

Their last hopes, on him they’d hung

And they weighed him like a ton

But perhaps for him he’d none much left to lose

Tony, don’t sweat it

Keep your hands steady

You were born on a dare but you were born ready

Cut the red wire

Or was that the green wire?

You’re on fire like:

(chorus)

And if this is it I want to go out with a bang

But I don’t claim to know anything

too tired to put up a pic.
omg kippy listens to bands like this
hes so innocent and sweet.
fuck I want to meet him, and tell him hes my sandy fucking hero. I bet he doesn´t get any, by the music he listens to, or he gets it all the time, he actually has a girlfriend probz. I wonder if he has stalker tendencies. ooooh us is on gonna dance and be merry like whore. omg this is such a great feeling I feel like I´m loved and that i´m not alone. I have friends online friends that love me like I was a million bucks. ;3 ;3

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

that is the gayest band i've seen

the association, leis and sunshine pop. well that explains chris. keke. I dreamt of kippy today it was muy fantastico, and I actually got to speak to him for hours on end it was joyous and he seemed pretty into too, yay! he was so perfect just like I imagined him in my mind. no other pains where there, but a hell of alot of hipsters and very accompanying music was playing, when I was laying around lol really yes I heard the whole discography of the pains and probably some alternate bullshit perhaps even some of the Ariel pink, then when he left to take a shower, because the hipsters where going to party and he got alerted of that and when I said I need to go to class in 15mins but I didn't mean it bb, damn oh yeah the song playing was probably really mainstream and bullshitty like pinks please don't leave me. he didn't come back to talk to me it was like the Michael backlash that had happened once, never again will I sacrifice a hanging out hours on end with a hot boy for a class... or maybe I should... lol I don't know maybe I just won't tell the boy, isn't that simple eh?
SEE WHAT I MEAN?? HOTTEST GUIEZ IN THE HISTORY OF HISTORY... IT IS THE VAGENDA






womp extra special crispyness

Monday, May 9, 2011

watching fat head



use coconut oil! and lots of good natural animal fats, woop. I'm hungry for ham, sausage, and chicken nuggets nom nom. lol is the pen mightier than the sword? I still think fast food is the devil and the director but it in a positive light I think he works for the government.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

squuuueeeeee I lovey this song



chris added me on lastfm!! i've been trolling around his parts thruout the day its been pretty sweet, u totes know he's a cali boi from the beach boys and third eye blind, but so confused about the rest of the hipster shitake mushrooms. I guess ny changes you?? maybe not? eh maybe hes just been a fucking trendy weirdo

Friday, May 6, 2011

AWW LOOK AT HIM HUFFING AND GOING UP THE STAIRS

nuuuuuuuurrrrrr not even gonna focus in in the middle of the screen




OMG CHRIS´S VOICE IS SOOOOOOOO NERDY IT HURTS, OH FUCK I´M DYING HERE OF THE SQUEENESS

OOOOOOH GOD HOPE I CAN SLEEP TONIGHT.
HAVING MR CHRIS IN MY DREAMS!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

some men were made fabulous.

my favorite dorian w song!!! has a new video!!! sweet mother of pearl I would never trade you for another world

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

OMGZ

I FOUND SOMETHING MORE HIPP THAN toliet paper at heart. squeeeeeee and it put me to sleep as well...
All the lights go down as I crawl into the spaces
Fight tight all the screens, life tearing at the seams

Wait, I don’t ever want to be here
Like punching in a dream breathing life into the nightmare

If it falls apart I will surely wake it
Bright lights turning green
This is worse than it seems

Wait, I don’t ever want to be here
Like punching in a dream breathing life into the nightmare

For get through, forget you
In the place that you’re feeling lost
In the corner where this moment

And the face that you wish was a ghost

(woooow ... wooow ... woooo)

Wait, I don’t ever want to be here
Like punching in a dream
Breathing life into the nightmare

also lost 15 lbs bitches!! even more less obese than evah b4 I rule at dieting!! oh shit son!

Monday, May 2, 2011

ohhhhhh god chris has a twin brother... omg threesome. lol... eww. I mean sweet deal dude. losing pounds by the minute gd yes! and this adorable furry video kekz because I can see kippys face the best, omg I was heaven for each time he popped out of that screen and unto my heart. :3

OMG THEY MADE A VIDEO FOR THIS SONG!!



READ THIS hxxp://www.tumblr.com/tagged/the-pains-of-being-pure-at-heart?before=1304223367

HE POKED ME!!

HE POKED ME!! HE POKED ME!! MY LOVE POKED ME!! omg so excited, he doeth not hate me, I'm planning on going on a major hike in a few minutes, should I stick with pants or jogging shorts? lol pants obvs. guess what!!? didn't gain any new weight!! omg new panic video. lol wouldn't it funny if I got regularly poked by my love, I would be like he pokes me every week and it is fabulous darling. lol nice watch out for those manic highs, I think I may be having one now. crap I forgot I have a psych apt today no more walking today, maybe friday perhaps, l8er gators!

DAMN SON

mr chris you can have whatever you like, I'd hit that so hard. and I'm not talking about with my car. lol man, when I become a 12 I will be back with a vagient. lol what? I can't spell for shit. also I think i'm turning into a portugalifiliote or whatever. The music was banging. unfortunately the singer still looks like a huge uglyfied turd bag. nom but still on my manbearpig high, and rec-ing the shit outta their new album, its supah gay just the way god intended. on to the corned beef, how does one corn a beef? simple mix with one cup of fresh corn and then bake for 350 and walah you've got some corn beef. lol bye

Sunday, May 1, 2011

suprise suprise

I went to the old church. the gang all ran outside to hug me and I felt honored and special, unlike the other times I was ignored and unappreciated. it was great, I really do like the spotlight don't i? its kind of a bad habit though because you are supposed to shine that special light towards other people, well I deserve it once in awhile don't i? I found out kk didn't delete from her list, she is just not in contact with me for awhile so it didn't show up on my friends list which is very strange. watch a sort of boring theater play with them too and eat worms with lugnuts. and kk can'r open doors, and guys don't crawl over themselves to talk to her, thank god. thank you so much god for giving me the strength to go back and face my fears, it was all worthwhile I should come like once a month that way people will always be happy to see me and it will be great. god such a sucker. tommorow is party time with friendly friends church and I find it to be the absolute perfect environment and church that I can think of, so suck on that for saying I can't find my perfect church, I have found it and i'm not leaving it for the world... ok unless kip decides to found the church of painful times then I may go to that one... i'd even go across the country. ok not really I got hotter fish to fry around here. I really really miss honey b not only his wall not showing, I think he doesn't like me that much anymore I'm going to attempt to like something of his and report back to you! also I'm overweight now and not obese, yessssssssssssssssssssssss! on my way into kips pretentious skinny loving heart. lets us soak in the shimmering shade of love and gayness for we are truely blessed beings. what the hell? thanks for reading bai!

does it work?

I LOVE YOU ALL
LIKE A BOMB LOVES A EXPLOSION
LET US CELEBRATE WITH DANCE AND CAKE
AND TRIPPY DRUGS
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