ok I had a really terrible night and day starting the day before yesterday. I don't know why I get so damn needy. I guess I can't just rely on big ol self anymore. Also I think I found someone deserving of my crushing and he seems sort of ok, but he smokes weed. eh I guess thats not bad. or is it terrible? well I'm addicted to the internet, and so he was pretty nice all the guys were and that chick that was there. If you don't know what I'm talking about that means it good for me. I like my secrets. just like brucios character. maybe some day it will pay the big bucks or maybe i'll be bald or some shit. maybe i'll be addicted to weed and have crazy ass tantric sex with that guy I just met. he had glasses and he was introverted, thats alot like me. oh and I hear he plays music with a mysterious instrument. I think a little e- lurking will cure this crush. oh and I saw the randster. he is def getting more attractive each time I see him, except for that habit of smoking. nasty and he depends on other people to give him the dope. seriously? I say. well off to the see the wizard of sleep. maybe he'll cast my crush as my prince and we'll have that dreamboat lake picnic and we can both be crazy because in real life we are crazy but with others around we are reserved as swans. hearts face. lol because my signs don't work here anymore!! love ya babes