Wednesday, January 28, 2015
Boo you whores
God dammit fbookl is the devil, it was a terrible reminder that my social life is lacking. I think it's time for me to sleep, I feel like literally rolling over in my gave, oh what I'm still alive? You must be kidding. Things are doing pretty well nonetheless. Met a new train buddy maybe. I just want to peace out and forget about my troubles. I wonder what the aspie gang is doing. I hope they are missing me. See look who said I have no friends, they are my friends, I actaully bring warmth and wit. Galah my first project in college and I'm freaking out about it. The directions and the content seem like it won't be too bad, I already did a third of the sketches. Galah I went back to my old job lots of new peeps and tally girl was there and cannoli, mom he just smiled like I was a regular customer no more woos for me hehe. I'm just as special and good as those other girls, just need to work on my self esteem, especially when I'm tired and cranky. I do feel better... Sleep time is a great and wondrous time, I may have some sweet dreams, my brain is caving in, so I shall leave you. I really enjoy my old ass art teacher she is sweet and so passionate. And the people in the class are getting to be better. I am great I'm spectacular and I'm original there is no one else in the world like me. Also I didn't choose this anxious depressed brain it was designed for humans since the dawn of time. Goodnight lovies
Thursday, January 15, 2015
Saturday, January 10, 2015
sick post dude
well things have certainly looked up for me! I have gotten over insecurities of school, battled my way into classes, talked to school counselors and advisors and worked out the details of my schooling and how I am going to transport myself there. I miss my old work people, ahhh cannoli I wonder how hes doing. ehehe. listened to old music futuros little advances and new music no one is lost! I feel like i'm loved and supported so in a pretty good place. and jayson and me are attached to the hip, I think he'll be my psych #2 because he is sooo supported and friendly I can't describe how much internal happy medicine he feeds me when we are together. Its like having this twin who gets you, but older so he can teach you a thing or two about life. and not sweating the small stuff, and keeping your friends close and laughing till you need water. I'm trying to get out and enjoy life again because it got royally screwed up. if no one is losty is not on my ipod by the end of the week i'll atleast be the most heard album from my compy. whose sickness has sort of let up, i'm using alternative browser and if I dont open too many tabs, my compy doesn't die. from the night is my life blood right now. everything is beautiful and nothing hurt. I don't carrre we never come back from the nigggghhttttt. noooooooo! hahaha. goodnite again
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I dont know what this song is about but
I think i'm in love with it, because it feels me on levels I didn't know I had right now, damn stars getting back in my damn life, praise thy heavenly music, which cures my aching soul and anxious bones. total club hits then it hits you when you least expect it, so far its been a really good ride, I love them baes.
We're back with the fear
Feels good to be here
Neurotic alcoholic
Make mine the gin and tonic
The kids in VIP are really making me angry
With lines around the block and inside the place it's empty
So step to the right, give up the fight
When you're standing in the dark it's hard to see the light
One more, one more, and they close that door
He told me he was young, I said "well what is that good for?"
Nobody stays that way, and day after day
All you get is the stick while you're waiting for your pay
Trap door, trap door, in the ceiling and the floor
Disappear, disappear, everybody feel the fear
You always did the things they told you to
You always bought that shit they sold you, sold you
I'm back with the hate, so sorry I was late
Yeah my name was on the list
But they said I had to wait
The kids in VIP are all looking for a family
Their teeth are made of gold but their wallets are empty
So step to the right, don't give up the fight
Yeah we're standing in the dark but we're looking for the light
One more, one more and they close that door
He told me he was young, I said "well what is that good for?"
Nobody stays that way, and day after day
All you get is the shit while you're waiting for your pay
Trap door, trap door in the ceiling and the floor
Disappear, disappear, everybody feel the fear
You always did the things they told you to
You always bought that shit they sold you, sold you
Trap door, trap door in the ceiling and the floor
Disappear, disappear, everybody feel the fear
You always did the things they told you to
You always bought that shit they sold you
One more, one more and they close that door
He told me he was young, I said "well what is that good for?"
Nobody stays that way, and day after day
All you get is the stick while you're waiting for your pay
Trap door
Trap door
thank you and goodnight!
We're back with the fear
Feels good to be here
Neurotic alcoholic
Make mine the gin and tonic
The kids in VIP are really making me angry
With lines around the block and inside the place it's empty
So step to the right, give up the fight
When you're standing in the dark it's hard to see the light
One more, one more, and they close that door
He told me he was young, I said "well what is that good for?"
Nobody stays that way, and day after day
All you get is the stick while you're waiting for your pay
Trap door, trap door, in the ceiling and the floor
Disappear, disappear, everybody feel the fear
You always did the things they told you to
You always bought that shit they sold you, sold you
I'm back with the hate, so sorry I was late
Yeah my name was on the list
But they said I had to wait
The kids in VIP are all looking for a family
Their teeth are made of gold but their wallets are empty
So step to the right, don't give up the fight
Yeah we're standing in the dark but we're looking for the light
One more, one more and they close that door
He told me he was young, I said "well what is that good for?"
Nobody stays that way, and day after day
All you get is the shit while you're waiting for your pay
Trap door, trap door in the ceiling and the floor
Disappear, disappear, everybody feel the fear
You always did the things they told you to
You always bought that shit they sold you, sold you
Trap door, trap door in the ceiling and the floor
Disappear, disappear, everybody feel the fear
You always did the things they told you to
You always bought that shit they sold you
One more, one more and they close that door
He told me he was young, I said "well what is that good for?"
Nobody stays that way, and day after day
All you get is the stick while you're waiting for your pay
Trap door
Trap door
thank you and goodnight!
Thursday, January 1, 2015
hohoho
life is good. no work. and I've got most of the classes that I wanted. my advisor is was also prompt in sending me an form that allows me to skip 3 classes cuz its been done bizatch also actually I did four on that list, but I can still take the class with those 3 yeah!!! nye was a blast, I was reminded by jayson how happy making he is. we had pizza, chips, weirdo convos, tv, and a dance party where we came up with the poop dance and the throwup dance and the geatric dance with invisble cane and hula hoop. hahahaha and jayson sang telephone pretty well even though he was a bit tone deaf. hahahawith all the gloom and doom in the world, he is the light at the end of the tunnel thanks dude for sticking through that emotional outburst. im gonna play a game soon where I meet aliens and cure diseases yay! hrmm real old fashion gaming right there. so far no meds taken and i'm feeling good. i feel jaysons got a grip on me as I too him so I like that, we depend on each for the lolz. everything is the same, as everything should be. god damn I would have never thought I would quote that song. it still sucks, happy I dont have to hear unless I'm randomly at my old place of work. love ya babes.